Hey TNG and welcome!
Breakdown's and anxiety sucks big time. I know where you're coming from indeed. My recovery's taken yrs. Please don't let that put you off ok. I was in a place where I couldn't even look after myself so I've done really well. That means if I can do it, you can too.
I finally cracked my anxiety by assessing my behaviour prior to anxiety occurring. I watched my reactions in relation to my environment and any triggers or stressors present at that time.
My conclusion? I was afraid of responses from others that I couldn't control. I had post traumatic anxiety which was bought on by bullying in the workplace, which triggered childhood abuse. The core of it though, was feeling helpless.
Once I realised that, I adjusted my beliefs and thoughts telling myself to accept I have no control over anyone. I did however have control over my reactions and responses. I had to change me...
I used medication, therapy, mindfulness and self assessing techniques to create a more balanced approach to people, conversations and situations. Yeah, sounds like a quick fix in 7 days I know, but it wasn't.
I can talk about it like that now because I've done my time with hard work, guts, determination, failures, forgiveness, success and re-building my communication skills most of all...one baby step at a time.
I hope you hang around to pick up tips from all and sundry who've stayed to help others. Your story just might click with someone else which in turn creates more recovery for everyone. It's a cycle of life on BB 🙂
Kind thoughts;
Sez
