Hello
I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I can see how frustrating and upsetting it is for you. Unfortunately sometimes intrusive thoughts sneak in and it can be very hard to get rid of them. It usually happens when we get pushed too far or are exposed to unhealthy ideas, stories or environment. Our mind can sometimes be a sponge in both good and bad ways. A lot of those thoughts can also be related to our basic instincts like defending ourselves and procreation.
As much as it can be very hard to do, the first thing is not to overreact to them as they are just thoughts, they don't define us, it's our actions that define us. Finding a good relaxation technique that works for you will help a lot with that.
Once we get a bit more calmer and comfortable than it's easier to deal with those thoughts. They need to be proved wrong, aligned with reality, called nonsense or ignored. Also finding more pleasant things to think about can help a lot.
I understand how upsetting those thoughts can be but there is a way out and with practice we realise that they are just our environments creation and don't define us. When it gets all too much please contact your GP as they can make it much easier to deal with.
