I wanted to know how long to keep pursuing professional help for anxiety?
I started seriously asking for professional help about three years ago. I went to my GP who gave me a list of names of professionals who help with anxiety. I worked my way through the list until I found one who was accepting new clients. He was a psychiatrist with a six month waitlist. I waited for the appointment and committed fully to the process. I wrote everything down I wanted to say and even accepted it would cost a lot of money. At the end of the session, he diagnosed me with autism. This was unexpected but made sense. He told me there was not anything "wrong" with me but I was living in a world that was not suited to me. I left feeling better about myself but only temporarily.
The problem was he never actually treated the anxiety. I started to feel bad again and returned to my GP. He actually made me feel awful about the diagnosis saying things like I was only "a little bit autistic". I decided to pursue a formal diagnosis. This had about a nine month waitlist and the process was completed over three months. It ended with a clinical diagnosis which I was able to use to apply for NDIS. I waited another few months to be accepted and was then asked to complete a functional assessment. I waited four months for the appointment which took place over three weeks. I am now waiting for them to get back to me.
Part of me knows this is the process of getting help. Yet another part of me knows that during the last three years, no-one has actually helped me with anxiety. I barely leave the house anymore and have constant anxiety attacks because of the noise from my neighbours. I put myself on a waitlist for a psychiatrist but have just been told it will be a few months before someone even decides to accept the referral. This will involve someone writing a report for the psychiatrists. I know I need help but I am beginning to wonder if there is any point continuing down this road of endless report writing. I am tired of explaining the same thing over and over again without getting anything in return. Is it worth it in the end?
