Panic Attack

Guest_1055 · ‎15-11-2015

This morning I know I had a mild panic attack. Gosh I have not had one for ages. For which I am very thankful. At the moment I am so fearful of what the people think of me. Because I was in a situation where I needed to explain an issue to two people. And they were looking at me with such trustful eyes. I didn't want to fail at verbally speaking. I am not sure if they understood and I could feel my voice shaking and that awful feeling of Mr dread and Mr fear creep up upon me. How I long to be free of those forever.....

Shelley anne

Emmy. · ‎18-09-2016

Hey Shell. Do you still experience the panic attacks? Can I suggest a really good little book called "Living with IT" by Bev Aisbett - you may have read it. It's a light hearted look at panic attacks but it is all so true. I take it with me when I go away. There's a series of different books.

Fear is such a strong emotion isn't it. Do you still suffer from feelings of fear and worrying about what people think of you? For me I do too. My psychiatrist recently diagnosed me with "avoidance personality disorder" and it explains alot about me and now why I'm developing agrophobia tendencies. Do you find it hard to leave the house at all?

Please don't feel you have to answer my question but just know you're not alone. I see this thread was from November so hopefully you're working through it with a professional.

Lots of love to you Shell. Emmy x

PS I understand what you mean about the power of love

Guest_1055 · ‎20-09-2016

Hi Emmy

You found this thread...Thanks heaps for thinking of me. How are you coming along?

As to the panic attacks.....One come upon me probably about a month ago now. It was only a mild one though. I was driving on my way to a support group, and I was running late. Just as I was turning into the road there were roadworks, plus a detour. I guess the fact I was running late ( sometimes I don't like walking in front of people, because they stare at you, when you walk in late, and I may just feel awkward about that. etc) and also the fact, I would have to drive a different way, or something. Well it just seemed a bit much at the time. Other than that I am pretty much free of them. Thanks too for caring enough to mention to me about those books. I haven't heard of them before. So what is the "It" , is it the panic attack itself, or fear?

Oh yeah fear is a very strong emotion, I totally agree with you. But I am coming to believe that love is so so much more stronger and powerful than fear. I can see why you understand that love is powerful. Because you chose to go with your hubby on those outings and things even though you were scared. My perception of that, is you went because you really love him and it would make him happy?? So perhaps you were motivated by love hey?

I wouldn't say I worry about what people think of me. But I definitely still struggle with the fear of being rejected sometimes. I also struggle with the rejection itself, so not feeling like people really love me or something.This might be based on wrong thinking on my part, like I believe lies. This is an issue I am still learning in this "group".

Yeah I knew you were diagnosed with that disorder. I read that it your thread. I did have trouble leaving my house a few years back. I was fearing what the neighbours thought of me and didn't want to be seen by them or something. I also had trouble going into shopping centres, because I would feel extremely self conscious and awkward. I think I actually feared feeling those feelings. I even had trouble knowing how to hold my physical body.... But I don't have a struggle now leaving the house at all. But I do remember what it feels like, so now it is my time to say to you dear Emmy, 'you are not alone'. Thanks for saying that by the way...

I received your lots of love too...thank you very much. Love and a hug also to you. Also I am so happy for you Emmy, that you are experiencing some victories in your own life.

Take care now

Love Shell xx

Cornstarch · ‎21-09-2016

Memory is absolutely positively sensory.

Ask anyone who has PTSD. That's why it can be so hard to go out in public if you're scared that'll you'll have a really horrible flash-back because you can control environments. Also our fear perception is malfunctioning.

I hope everyone on this thread receives some relief from their panic attacks.

You can definitely cure them. And if not cure you can get to a point where you feel the energy surge up inside you, but are able to observe it from some distance and they don't escalate any further than that initial surge.

I have lost count how many I've had. They make you feel like a wally don't they.