Over it all...

[SilverLight]

This is my 9th year of living with anxiety and depression. I've been.on two different anti depressants over the last 3 years but had to come off the last one because I'm pregnant with a little boy. Hubby and I planned our little miracle and we couldn't be more thrilled 😍 however the added hormones along with a gruelling six months (I lost my job due to morning sickness, my car was written off and my only uncle, one of only 8 members of our very close family, is fighting terminal brain cancer) has made for a tough time. I've copied pretty well up until now but I'm just so over everything at the moment... Over seeing my family arguing, crying, sad and falling apart because of my uncle's illness, over having to sit here and pretend it's all normal to me because my husband has cancer too(caught super early and controlled), over having barely any friends and nobody else around me who is pregnant, feeling like a burden on my husband because I want someone to talk about the baby with without feeling like he doesn't matter and I need to keep my mouth shut, over feeling so alone and most of all, over the idea of going back on medication... I never want to put it in my body again... But I also don't believe in and struggle with the concept of mindfulness due to my Christian faith and due to believing that if we could stop this stuff with some simple Mind tricks it wouldn't exist... Yet it does... Please please please... Someone tell me how to deal with this without mindfulness or filling my unborn son with medication... I'm terrified of telling my psychologist any of this in case she just puts me back on the meds...

I should mention, our local community offers nothing for expectant or new mums or dads. There's a few neighbouring communities that do but I'm much too scared to approach them... Bloody social skills of a deck chair... 😥😥

[Bethie]

Hi

I was like you. I wouldn't take meds when i was pregnant dispite nearly being hospitalised with Prenatal depression and having a chronic breakdown because of work pressure at 4 months.

It is possile to get through this. If you can talk to a midwife. They are great and full of helpful advice.

I volunteer at a local community centre on reception and we often have people come in at the end of their rope with all sorts of problems. Most have a room available and a trained councillor on staff to deal with anything.

We are all here for you through this so please post anything you want. Good or bad,

[Blume]

Hi SilverLight

I’m sorry that you are experiencing so many challenging situations at once without breathing space.

How long before your beautiful longed for son is born? It must be so hard to enjoy the experience with your current circumstances.

Training your mind to be strong and positive takes time. An awareness of ones breathing and conscious effort to practice relaxation will be good preparation for labour and your sons birth. Have you checked this out?

In practicing mindfulness there is no reason why you can’t dwell on the word of God. Love, peace, hope etc

Are you doing something nice for yourself each day to enjoy and bond with your unborn son? Caring for yourself will help you with the extended family issues.

Have you joined any mum and bub web sites where you can talk and share experiences of being an expectant new mum?

Wishing you well. Your son’s birth will be a ray of light in difficult times.

[SilverLight]

Thank you for your kind words 😌 Our beautiful boy is due at the end of May. 💙

I never really thought of asking the nurses at the hospital... Just too scared of going back on the medication. Maybe I should ask at the next appointment...

I have a mums and bubs forum I follow/post on 🙂 I just really wanna meet new people...

I find it very hard to enjoy the experience with all that's been going on lately... I've been struggling to find the motivation just to get out of bed the last week or so... I just want to be happy about our little boy and I feel like I've had it stripped from me... At least his little kicks and the recording I have of his heartbeat make me feel calm and reasured ❤

Hmm I never really considered turning the mindfulness towards a focus on God's word... I really need to read my bible more.. 📖