Hi everyone,
My name is Callum and I've suffered with Anxiety ever since I was a teenager. In the past I have also dealt with depression, which was causing me to turn on my parents and friends before I seeked help and saw a psychologist. But since then I have started a new relationship which is now in its 3rd year which is fantastic (the way it started was incredibly difficult, but I don't want to get into that just yet). But my partner recently moved to a town about 4 hours by car away from our hometown. I was unable to join her due to work initially which hurt a lot. I moved back in with my parents and felt quite alone despite having some friends I was able to catch up with. She eventually admitted to struggling by herself so we organised a months work for me so I could finally move down. I was enjoying the job I was doing in my hometown so it was difficult to leave even though I had good reasons. The work I ended up doing was not enjoyable and was working from home, so it was very lonely and isolating, especially in a new town. Since I have left my hometown I have felt a change in my body. I went to a doctor as I was certain I had an issue somewhere. But nothing was found and my doctor was quite sure it was anxiety.
It felt different from when I was a teenager though. Since that initial months work in my new town I have been moving to and from my hometown doing odd bits of work just to keep some money in. But I keep having symptoms that make me constantly worry 24/7. We even went on a tropical holiday but I wasnt able to enjoy it much at all. In an essence it feels like the symptoms I am having for Anxiety are giving me anxiety and it feels like I can't get away from it. I have a new job lined up in a few months time and for now I am just keeping busy. I feel once I start this new job and start interacting with new people I will be able to relax more, but I don't know.
I hope this makes sense to someone. I really would like to talk to people and try and understand a way to get out of this anxiety cycle.
