My day with my best friend anxiety

[Lone]

So I woke up today and took my child to school, i then had a coffee and went back to bed, I then did some work on the computer because even when I have a day off I can't stop thinking about work, I was yet to eat anything for the day because I was too anxious, I managed to eat something now but it is 330 and I am lying in bed still yet to brush my teeth or comb my hair, I just don't have the energy, I feel really guilty and sad that I have not done more, I live on my own

[Not_Batman]

Hi lone.
im sad to hear about your day, how long have you been feeling this way?
I used to come home after a 9-10 hour day at work, and then still be answering emails at 10pm. So i missed a lot in my familys life.
Sometimes we feel compelled to continue working in the off hours because we believe it will be better, but the truth is that it takes a toll.

run a car until the fuel tank runs dry, before you know it, you’re stuck, cant do anything until some fuel goes back in the tank. Its the same with life, Anxiety can run you dry, but a little bit of maintenance (self care) keeps you running.
do you practice any mindfulness, meditation, or do tou see a health professional?
I loathe anxiety sooo much. if only we could be good friends with our anxiety and have full power over it. We can fight our thoughts and feelings and still feel miserable from it, but another avenue is to embrace the feelings.
when you child gets home, what will you ask them? Will you do anything special together?
be strong, the BB community is here to support you.

Not_Batman

[Hana23]

This is the first time I’ve ever done something like this. My anxiety seems to be a normal part of life. The biggest thing I have been struggling with lately is the constant fear of death of a family member. I have 2 brothers and one of them is younger. He is 21 and he has lost a few friends already to drink driving etc. I have this constant ache in my gut of something bad happening to him everyday. I just constantly think the worst of every situation and I am constantly telling him I love him because I am so afraid of losing him. I don’t know how to overcome this fear and constant anxiety and I just always feel like something bad is going to happen

[Not_Batman]

Hi hana23,

welcome to the forum, and thanks for reaching out.

after a tragedy, we can begin do feel that ‘impending doom’. Anxiety can amplify that, but it helps to talk about it, and the forums are a good place to do that.

it sounds like you have a good relationship with your brother, and care very much about his safety. I’m glad that you have the courage to talk to him.

Have the two of you spoken more openly?

i hope you can find some more answers and support here.

Not_Batman

[Lone]

Thanks for your reply I have been feeling this way for quite awhile and I am in Melbourne so I feel like this has made it worse. You are right about boundaries between work and home, it is not something I am very good at. I feel like my anxiety is running me now not the other way round, so it will take some work to change that around