Missing anxiety?

[Liz90]

Hi,

So through being mindful and aware and bringing myself back into my own space, I've really learnt to keep the wolves at bay. Today I had an exam, I was in such a panic, it was about to churn into something awful. I had visions of being carried out of the exam! Ridiculous I know. 

However, I'm feeling like I've got this thing under control most of the time. Usually I sit here at night with the tv on, drink my tea and try to get rid of those pesky anxious feelings that constantly sit in my stomach ALL the time. But last night and tonight the anxiety seems to have disappeared completely. For hours. And THAT makes me feel uneasy? I'm relieved don't get me wrong but, I feel a little bit lost. Not having that being controlled feeling? Not knowing when it's going to come back? Should I be happy or scared? 

Does this happen to anyone else? I'm so confused. I feel like I should be rejoicing but I feel a little flat about it? Worried? ARGHHHHH!!! 

Thanks 

[JessF]

Hello Liz, I do know what you mean. The thing is, the anxiety may very well come back.  It may not.  You worrying about it coming back is a symptom of anxiety!  It's often said that anxiety is worrying about what might happen in the future (often false), and depression is worrying about what has happened in the past (often through a distorted lens).  Just try your best to concentrate on what is happening in the here and now and what will be will be.  I know that's easier said than done but that is how I cope.