Since my little incident, the burning, the constant panic attacks and paranoia it’s now been 7 days since ive been on medication.
I’ve had my ups and my downs, days starting positively and then ending negatively and in reverse. Some nights I’m riddled with anxiety and it lasts over till the next day and I’m useless and not one someone should ask for help.
i don’t know if it’s the medication that’s affecting me physically but I’ve got constant headaches, neck pain and like I’m gonna pass out. My eyes are sensitive to the light and they pulse and don’t even get me started on the lack of sleep I’m dealing with.
I don’t have a very good support network in my family because I’m not sure they know how to soothe me when I’m scared of dying, I’m scared my symptoms are me dying or something sinister like a Tumor... I can’t convince myself otherwise and it’s scaring me.
its exhausting and I’m over it.
i just want to feel normal instead of dissociating or being left in a 4 hour panic attack that I can’t calm down from, I’ve made calls. I’ve got another doctors appointment and I see a counsellor soon.
I don’t know why I’m posting here, I guess because I have no one who understands or who will really talk to me about this or maybe because I just .. need to vent and this is the perfect place.
