Im lost - What do i do from here?

[anita24]

So i have been struggling with depression/anxiety for 10 years now. I have gone through so many jobs and left the job in the wrong way because i was scared to speak up, as i couldn't take it anymore i just left job after job, theres many gaps of time on my resume showing i've done nothing. Its gotten to the point where i am scared to take another job because i'm scared i cant handle it and its just more bad reputations i am doing to myself. Ive tried many medications, pyschologists. I feel like my life as the years go by are getting worse and worse its hard to see it getting better, since i havent been able to hold a job ever for more then a few months. I just want to keep a job, Its also taking its toll on my partner, he supports me but he doesn't earn much himself. He never complains but i'm so sad that i'm not contributing, and i just want to know how if any techniques helped others with this situation and if anyone is in the same position i am.

[blondguy]

Hello Anita24

You may feel lost however you are never alone where anxiety is concerned

Good on you for having the courage to post...Thats a huge step towards recovery

I understand as I used to have chronic anxiety that started when I was 23....and its not a nice place to be in. Please dont feel guilty or bad that you are not earning a consistent income. Diagnosed anxiety can be crippling not to mention doing well in your job at the same time.

Diagnosed anxiety disorder does take time to heal....unfortunately. There are many coping techniques available which are very helpful, however there is no quick fix.

You are very proactive by seeing a counselor and having tried meds too. Ditto here

The Good News!.....Anxiety feelings/symptoms do decrease in their severity with frequent counseling...monthly is good...fortnightly is great...and weekly (if possible) is excellent!

I also went through a few jobs with my anxiety too but was only kidding myself having counseling every 6-8 months...It never really worked (for me)

May I ask you how severe your anxiety actually is? Do you have daily panic (anxiety) attacks or in certain situations? If you can provide a little extra info we can help support you more effectively 🙂

The forums are a safe and judgement free place for you to post Anita24. Your privacy is paramount here

You are not alone

Thankyou for posting with us

Paul

[MsPurple]

HI anita and welcome.

I know personally how bad anxiety can be. I myself have also seen a lot of psychologists. I found one recently I click with but it doesn't eliminate the problem. It just helps me deal with them better than without their help.

Alhtough I am not in the same position you are in, I do know how you feel. I feel super anxious sometimes at work, especially in new jobs. I have had a few jobs in the last few years, but I have had a lot of long term jobs too. I find sometimes organizing more appointments to see the psychologist near my first shift and in my first month useful. I talk about my fear of the new job, and they help me get through it. Maybe this could be something you could try. Note you may need to set aside 1-2 of your mental health plan visits to this time

I also sometimes try meditation. I find sometimes my racing mind can be the main issue with my anxiety. I find that it helps stop my racing mind. I also use some of the techniques I learned in my meditation in my work life. I try block everything out when I am super stressed. Maybe you should give meditation a try. It can't hurt. I do it at home just before bed using a phone app. I have been using the free section of an app called 'calm'. I have also heard good things about 'headspace', 'smiling minds' etc.

I hope this advice will be helpful for you. I know it is hard and it seems like it will never get better, but I found with time it gets easier.

[anita24]

Hi Paul thankyou for your response it is very appreciated. My anxiety is bad daily. I some times wake up in a panic, i have panic attacks daily & sharp pains in my chest when i do. I have irrational thoughts. I feel stressed a lot of the time along with depression. I really just want to work and live a normal life. I try really hard to get jobs, but keeping them for some reason is something i cant do. Thankyou for sharing your experience, to hear you " used " to have anxiety gives me hope. Im glad its a thing of the past for you.

[anita24]

Thankyou Mspurple for your response its very appreciated, you have a lot of good points, thankyou. I try to do meditation, its something i need to keep motivated to doing everyday.