Hi Gray welcome
You're sounding quite distressed at the thought of partner going away, I know you said you don't really want to talk to friends but maybe it could be the distraction you need and possibly talking to them could help you although you feel you don't want to
You could also call here on tel:1300224636 if you want, they might have some calming strategies & good to be able to let it out in another way too.
Would you be able to stay a couple of days at friends
Have you had a look in some anxiety threads here, could be of some help, a lot of breathing techniques are helpful basically focusing on that nothing else.
Our thoughts can be so consuming can't they but remember it's exactly that, our thoughts. Learning to redirect them can be quite a job but worthwhile sticking at.
I've found in the past with a couple of whopper anxiety attacks hard self talk has settled me while concentrating on breathing. Also hard in and hard out breathing took some anxiety out of the chest a couple of times
Wishing you all the best hun
Hope to hear back from you
