Hi. I'm not sure exactly what my question is. I guess I'm looking for people that have had similar experiences.
Today in the way home from work I cried. Someone had noticed I moved a wheelie trolley to lean my book on at work. He said that's not how it's done there usually. I said 'yeah but I'm different' with a smile. He said yes, I knew you were strange when I first met you. I brushed it off but as the day went on I remembered how many times I have been told I'm kooky, different, strange, 'honest' (read: blunt). Or 'special' with that look that's supposed to be a joke but doesn't feel like it.
One time I got the courage to respond and question directly at the time to a good friend who is known for telling things how it is. She had a lot of pauses formulating her answer. She told me that I was blunt. Honestly I don't feel I am but I'm trying to appreciate that is how I'm seen at times by others.
in a way I feel like I'm back at school where there's that one kid that everyone has to treat extra nice because they have some sort of impairment /disability that wants to participate in something you know they just can't fully. Indulging their request. Is there something wrong with me that I don't know about?
Ive had depression diagnosed years ago which subsided with short term medication before coming back a number of years later - this time with its friend anxiety. I got help through GP and psychologist. Learnt about mindfulness. Im not sure how to respond (within myself) to comments of being weird/strange/different.
My sibling got diagnosed borderline personality disorder recently now I'm worried if I were going down that path. I over complicate too much at times.
Surely I'm not alone in my experience
