I'm a compulsive liar. I need help before I turn into my mother.

[viennablue]

I'm a compulsive liar and i need to change.

I've managed to lose the trust of everyone around me; my mum, sisters, best friend and i'm only 18. i have no one an it's all my fault. I have no one to blame but me. I lie consistently, about things that i don't need to lie about and despite knowing telling the truth would make me feel better I still lie. I'm so confused by my own actions and i hating hurting those around me. i honestly don't know what to do. I've recently lost my job due to moving houses and i just feel like crawling into a hole and never coming out.

I know i cant do that. i want to change. i want to be a good person, be kind and honest. i just don't know what to do or where to start. i know my mother is a compulsive liar its the reason she and my dad divorced. i really don't want to be my mum. i love her just not that part of her. i see so much of her in me and i hate it.

i want to be honest and good.

[smallwolf]

hi viennablue and welcome to beyond blue.

firstly, there are a few positives you can take from your post - there is a sense of accountability (at least here) and honesty in recognising the issues, owning it, and wanting to do something about it. In this space also know that nobody will judge you for your actions.

I guess one of the thing to figure out what compels you to lie? It may or may not be important to finding ways to dealing this matter. Perhaps start small. Or make yourself a promise that today I won't lie. It is also important to note that it is also OK to get professional help if you need it. there area few similar stories elsewhere on the forums...

• https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/anxiety/i-have-a-compulsive-liar-disorder-i-...

• https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/depression/compulsive-liar-help-

which will probably show you that you are not the first and won't the last person to lie.

Something else about your post... it shows that you can tell the truth, maybe easier to tell the truth?

Tim