Hey,
Growing up my father was physically abusive toward my older sister. He never hit me, but I witnessed the abuse at a young age. Apart from that, I have a younger brother and some uncles that I see sometimes. But I was mostly surrounded by women throughout my childhood and into my highschool years.
I no longer live with my Dad because he refuses to own up to what he did. I understand that growing up and witnessing one of the only men in my life abuse and hurt my loved ones maybe impacted my ability to talk to men.
I also find tall men and those that speak with low voices more intimidating. If a man has a clear feminine energy, I tend to be fine talking with them. But I struggle talking to most men, regardless of how they look.
anyway, I just find it exhausting dealing with this because I have to interact with men both at work and at university. But it feels as though this social anxiety is holding me back from making great friends.
stella
