When I was 11 years old, I started to get these horrific thoughts like killing someone I love or something, I automatically thought it was me and I was a bad person who needed to be kept away... it wasn't until a couple of years later that I got diagnosed with OCD with the help of loving family members and headspace.
My OCD has been acting up terribly lately to the point where it is making me feel sick and unwell mentally (I am still able to care for myself) in the head. I have had OCD for approximately 6 years now and still battling it. My OCD is mostly obsessional thoughts about the categories such as violence, sexual stuff and just unwanted non helpful thoughts. My compulsions result in a heap of hand washing and sometimes checking electrical appliances to see if there is water on them or not.
I am also very paranoid about food eg. food poisoning or just getting sick in general, I hate having the thought that im gonna vomit and the OCD doesn't do anything besides keeping that thought reoccurring through my head. I have given up meat because of the extreme worry of food poisoning. I do see a psychologist at headspace and I do know that these are thoughts and I am the complete opposite to these intrusive thoughts. These constant intrusive thoughts affect my learning at school, I don't give as much attention as I did a month or 2 ago and they also affect the way I look and feel physically.
Lately I have been a lot more gloomier, tired and not bothered to do anything and that is not my usual self at all.
Basically I am looking for support from others who understand what I am talking about and we can support each other through it 🙂
