Has anyone felt this way before?

[Gos98]

I have suffered with anxiety on/off for most of my teenage/young adult life.

I often to get the usual symptoms when my anxiety is heightened - trouble sleeping, nausea, feeling on edge etc.

My partner & I had sex, after this happened, a rush of emotion hit me and I burst into tears and was convinced that I didn't love him anymore which was making me feel 10x worse because I really do!

I went to sleep feeling shitty but woke up a few hours later feeling very suicidal - which has never happened before. My head felt heavy and I didn't feel like I was in control of myself. I managed to get through this and went back to sleep. When I woke up, the feeling had subsided to the normal feelings of my anxiety. As well as this, the feeling of not feeling any emotions to my partner will not go away. He is trying to comfort me but I feel nothing. It's making me feel worse & I'm scared the feeling won't go away.

Is this a normal symptom of anxiety?

Any advice or thoughts would be much appreciated

[Sophie_M]

Hi Gos98,

Welcome to our friendly community, and thanks for reaching out here. We're so sorry to hear that you've been struggling with anxiety for so long. It sounds like it is particularly difficult at the moment, and it's concerning to hear that you were feeling very suicidal.

Can we ask if you are you currently receiving mental health support, or have you in the past? If not, we would urge that you do seek professional support to help you work through these symptoms that you're experiencing. If you are not sure of how to access mental health support, please contact the Beyond Blue Support Service anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport One of the friendly counsellors can offer you some support but also provide you with advice and referrals for seeing a counsellor in a more ongoing way. Thanks again for joining our community. Please feel free to reach out here on your thread anytime.

[Egbert97]

Hi Gos98,

I know when I’m particularly anxious & depressed I can depersonalise & shut off my feelings to everyone - including my partner. This mostly occurs during a pretty stressful event; is there anything going on in your life that’s been particularly nerve-racking? Something that might be stopping you from being open? Also are you seeing a psych?

Hope all was well over the evening.