Hi SMP
First of all apologies that we have taken so long to respond to you. Secondly, welcome to our forums. It is very brave to share what is going on with you personally. Hopefully you find this channel useful and supportive to what you are going through.
Sounds like you are really good at your job which is why both of these opportunities have been presented to you.
You have had so much on your plate. Sorry to hear about what you have been through personally and with your husband and mother.
How are your kids going?
As a fellow sufferer of anxiety and a new secondment at work I can relate to how you are feeling. I got the secondment after mentioning to another General Manager what I was interested in doing next...she then made it happen and I found myself the project lead for something I had no experience in, in the early stages of a pregnancy and timelines that were so tight everyone kept saying we wouldn't be able to deliver. But we broke it all down via a project plan, agreed who was doing what according to our responsibilities and strengths and got through it. I didn't get a lot of support from the General Manager but we are on the other side now and I am feeling very proud of what we have achieved.
It is up to you to keep pressing forward or not. I did say to the General Manager that I was struggling and out of my depth but she didn't do too much, it made things a bit tricky but now I rely on other people for the support I need. She knows I have anxiety and is sympathetic but still wants everything delivered to a high standard!
Before you make a decision, are you able to speak to the manager who bent over backwards to help you? She might have a helpful perspective?
Blue Jane
