First time posting : relapsed

[Talafa]

Good Morning all,

I have recently reached out for help with my anxiety after a altercation with my mother in law brought me stress and anxiety levels to the top of the gp grading. My issues stem from a tricky childhood and a abusive relationship. I fear abandonment and confrontation. My partner also has crohns disease and was also diagnosed with depression recently.

After I went to the gp looking for help I started to pick up I am on light meds and started a mindfulness and self care journey this has worked really well. My partner has fallen into a bit of a low in the last few days and this has spun me out. He has lost his spark and play and joy. I am confused and hurt whilst understanding his struggles. I miss my man and am terrified of asking for what I deserve in the relationship on a whole. I am left scared, with lump in my throat and just overwhelmingly sad. I hate this feeling and I am doing all I can to break free I am just stuck in this cycle.

[Mia001]

Hi Talafa,

First up, a big welcome to the forums and congrats on your first post! It can be difficult to share your story with complete strangers, so good on you. I've found the community here is just amazing and I really hope it's the same for you.

I'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through. It must be especially hard on you, as you have your own mental health issues as well as a depressed partner. I'm really glad to hear that you've taken some steps (talking to GP, meds, mindfulness, selfcare etc). If you don't mind me asking, do you see a counsellor or psychologist at the moment?

Don't know what else to say except that if you want to talk I'll be here. I'm sure some of the others will come along and say hi soon too. Would love to hear from you if you're able.

Take care,

Mia

[Talafa]

Hi Mia,

Thankyou for your reply, I am yes talking to someone. I have done a mental health plan with my doctor and using my subsidized sessions. This has helped me identify my triggers and helping me acknowledge what is fear and what is justified. I have a great family and friend support network. I am just stuck between a rock and a hard place in this moment and I don't know if I need to wait and let it pass or if I need to take action and start all over again.

[Mia001]

Hi Talafa,

I'm so sorry that I didn't reply earlier. I was just not coping and I couldn't find the words to say.

Its great to hear that you're seeing a psych. I'm also glad that you've got a support network because that's equally important.

To be honest, I don't know what to say except that taking care of yourself has to take priority. Making sure you're managing and then you will find yourself better able to support your partner. It can be hard to know when to be there and when to give them space. Try and let him guide you. Hope you find this helpful. 🙂

Take care,

Mia

[Mia001]

Oh, should have said this before, just a quick intro...

I'm 17, was homeschooled to year 10. My dream is become a nurse in E.D/paramedic. I currently work in fast food. I enjoy being creative, listening to music, walking and spending time with family and friends. (Can't forget my cute cat!)

I joined the forums to get support and to hopefully be able to help others. I'm experiencing some anxiety and depression, and I'm currently going to counselling for past sexual abuse.

Mia

[CMF]

Hi Talafa and welcome,

sorry to hear you are struggling and well done for taking steps to help yourself. Understand the MIL issues, I too fear confrontation and rejection I think. Have you been able to sort out the issue and do you see her often? Has hubby been to see his gp? He needs to help himself too, is he aware how you are feeling?

wishing you the best

cmf

[Talafa]

Hi cmf

I am doing a lot better this week. I am taking steps to help myself and in doing so i believe i will be able to face some of the issues i have that i need to resolve that are triggering me. He has been to see a gp and is on meds but he does not talk much about it and i still don't think he has fully accepted his condition. But I can't do that for him neither can his family. So it is just a wild old ride at the moment. I am doing my best to not accept rude and intensive behavior from him shrugging it off as depression and crohns isn't fair to me. It just makes me spiral downwards.

[Talafa]

Thankyou beautiful girl. If you ever need anything please let me know. Your response really helped me on the day i posted. xo

[Mia001]

Hi Talafa,

Thankyou so much. 😊

I'm glad that I can help. Wishing you all the best!

Mia