Hi guys,
I want to start off by saying thank you for opening this thread. I know a lot of people are on this website dealing with personal issues, so i just want to thank you, whoever is reading this and taking time to reply to my thread.
It does mean a lot really.
I have anxiety issue. I dont know if im still depressed but i know for a fact that i still get flashbacks from all the bad things, traumatic things that happened to me. Right now, i feel very down and distressed. I just canceled my 9hr shift because i couldnt do it.. What makes it even more upset is that, I tried my hardest this morning to be able to feel strong enough, to fight this anxiety as i could already see it coming. I prayed, read the bible, had a good breakfast and whatnot.
but after even getting ready, i just couldnt do it. i wanted to burst out and cry. I know for a fact tho that not only i have anxiety issues, i also have been dealing with relationship problem with my partner... It tears me apart.
Now i feel like such a looser for not doing my shift. It reminds me of the reason i lost my job before because cancelling my shifts....
I just want to cry and let this out. I need someone to understand me.wanted to tell my boyfriend but I know he will get angry especially that we are struggling financially (we live together). I hope thats the reason why im saying all these things here...
I have work again tomorrow. already scared of whats gonna happen..
If anyone could give me kind words or any encouragement i would really appreciate it.
Thank you.
Ps: I dont see a counsellor anymore. Not at the moment as i dont feel like its evhelping me at all.
