Feeling confused after bushfire impacted property

[blank_paper]

Hi..My property and all of my neighbours were heavily impacted by bushfire..I still have my house...large percentage of neighbours have lost theirs. It has been 8 weeks nearly. I have been strangely calm and accepting of everything..waiting for the anxiety wave that I usually get after things happen in my life (nothing has ever happened like this) The best way I can describe it is that I feel like a blank piece of white paper. I am nervous about bringing this to life..I think because it might spiral my nerves and anxitey out of control. I am sleeping fine..until about 5am then I keep thinking about all the things I have to worry about....their is so much to deal with..and everything seems to be at a standstill..after the initial event..I was constantly busy organizing things...insurance.. getting power back on..feeding cattle etc...should I talk about it..or should I just keep a lid on my anxiety ...and wait for it to bite me in the bum further down the track LOL...I am usually very quiet person..that has always felt in control of my life - family etc. Thanks. I am actually getting a anxious feeling as I am typing this.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi blank paper,

Welcome to the forums and thanks for reaching out. I'm glad that you shared what's going on even though typing it out made you anxious. I am sorry to hear about what's happened with the bushfires; while glad that your house was safe, it really is a traumatic event that affects entire communities.

Feeling like a blank piece of paper makes perfect sense. I think you are right in that it's kind of protecting you a little bit from all these nerves and anxiety.

Your question - should I talk about it, or should I keep a lid on my anxiety and wait it to bite me in the bum - Gee, I wonder! haha I think that you've answered your own question there!

How do you feel about talking about it with someone? What sort of support do you have around you - or would you be open to talking to a therapist about it?

rt