hi. ive been really wondering if somethings wrong with me and its stressing me out. i think that i might have ocd but not sure if this is a symptom. every month or so ill read a book, watch a tv show, see a new person or discover a new sport. i become so obsessed with that something that i feel like my whole life revolves around it. i start feeling really guilty (i have no idea why) and like i cant live without it. for example, right now its a tv show. i want to be in the tv show so bad that i start hating my life. (sounds stupid, i know). i was feeling perfectly fine since my last obsession until this one started. i cant do anything without thinking about the show or comparing everything i do to it. i hadnt cried for a long time but these past 2 days i cant stop the feeling of wanting to cry. i keep crying about it but i physically cannot stop myself from watching it. it was like my last obsession, which was figure skating. i discovered the sport and decided right then and there i wanted to be an olympic figure skater. then of course, i spent hours researching everything about the sport and found out most olympic figure skaters started at an extremely young age. i felt so sad i couldnt stop crying and thought that my life had to be based around this. (i didnt even know this sport existed a few hours before this.) i signed myself up for a private figure skating lesson. then 3 days later i woke up and was really confused about what i saw in the sport and cancelled the lesson. that was the end of that obsession. it doesnt sound like much but during the obsession i feel so paralyzed and like i cant escape it. really. is there something wrong with me or is this normal? it is seriously annoying. anyways this was kind of long sorry. thanks.
