Hi and welcome Romy;
Yep...I know what you're talking about. On a date yrs ago, I began blubbering uncontrollably in front of my date; it came out of nowhere. The convo had been great, food was delicious and atmosphere was accommodating. But you know what? He was as lovely as ever. He took it in his stride and comforted me with hugs while I composed myself.
That's what good people do Romy. They cope with what's in front of them as best as they can. As we became closer, those episodes stopped. It was all about trust.
Please don't forget you're a body full of chemicals too. Each bout of anxiousness will trigger chemical reactions that cause even more anxiety. When I'm faced with difficult situations, I take prn anti anxiety med's 1/2 an hr before leaving. This helps to fend off the adrenaline.
Once you feel more comfortable around him, things will change. It's not so much trusting him that has to happen; it's trusting yourself and your judgement that needs to occur. Placing too much emphasis on him liking you can be deceptive. You need to identify if you really like him.
Although anxiety's a mongrel to deal with, it's there for a reason. It's your concerns 'amplified' due to a damaged central nervous system. I guess you could say it's wearing your fear on your sleeve.
I do hope things improve as you move forward. In the meantime, think about using prn med's before going out to keep your mind focused and clear.
I hope I've helped because you deserve it. Let me know how things travel ok.
Kind thoughts;
Sez
