Anxiety returned after nearly a month of relief :(

[Chloekat84]

Hello everyone. Ive written on these forums before. Ive been diagnosed with BPD and Dysthymia and recently went to an emergency refuge clinic while my parents looked after my daughter. I was doing so well while I was there for a week then when I came out I felt fresh with a different outlook on life and also was looking forward to my grandma coming over to stay for 3 weeks with me. Shes from Darwin so means a lot that shes here. Anyways its getting near the end of her stay. She leaves in 2 days and I don't know if its subconscious but today I have had extremely bad anxiety and have felt neuseas and judt wana cry. It must be because I know im going to be completely on my own looking after my daughter. Shes not a hard child to look after but everything is hard when I feel like this. I haven't had to come on this forum for a while because ive been doing so well but now im scared im going to fall into a heap after she leaves. I just want to hide and cry :'(

[white knight]

Hi Chloe, welcome back here

I'm a believer in drastic positive changes to our lives as sufferers. Others might not agree.

Is there a way you can migrate to Darwin? Or is there a chance your family can move to your location?

How about a phone call to your grandma every night even for just 5 minutes? Also focus on your daughter and her needs. Work on a hobby or find a hobby.

I know what dysthymia does to your thought patterns. Extreme emotion and melancholy feelings. Try writing things down. I use poetry to ease my feelings. It works for me.

Take care   Tony WK

[Chloekat84]

Hey White Knight. Unfortunetly I can move there as I couldn't afford to live up there and my son is down here and need to be close to him to see him. My grandma did say she can visit every 6 monthes and she calls every night. Also they cant move down here as the weather isn't good for their health as well. She leaves tomorrow night then back to being alone.