I recently asked for a referral to a psychologist to tackle my long term issues with anxiety, depression and complete lack of self confidence. After several sessions I don't feel that they are very helpful as my anxiety causes me to freeze up in these sessions and not speak more than one word answers and unfortunately my psych isn't a mind reader and I can feel her getting frustrated with me not opening up to her. I feel the more I 'dont talk' the less she tries and instead talks about day to day things that I SHOULD be doing to better my future wellness etc. that's all well and good but inside my head I'm screaming at her to help me overcome this anxiety, I know what I should be doing but it doesn't make it any easier. I feel like she's throwing me in a river and telling me to just learn how to swim!
Basically social anxiety rules my life. Every decision I make day to day is out of avoidance of people and social situations. Self confidence is non existent to the point where I've quit my job, I'm losing the relationship with friends because I decline invites, I'm barely leaving the house because i need to avoid any social interactions. I've had a lot going on in the last couple of months and felt my anxiety is getting worse, not only in social situations but for no reason. I found myself getting anxious about 'getting anxious' and waking up at night with a racing heart and gasping for breath. This caused even more anxiety.
I've asked for help and my psychologist is not helping, I dont know where else to turn. I'm constantly stressing over the next psychologist appointment because I know how terrible I am at talking, she's no longer trying to listen and is becoming frustrated with me. I feel like I'm sitting in a principals office getting a lecture and I feel defeated before I even walk in the door. Maybe if she'd ask the right questions she might get the answers she wants but instead she sits and waits until I say something....
