Anxiety about chosen one

[Dagony]

Hello
I've got a bad history with anxiety and OCD and at the moment I have this big fear of not being able to use contraception with my wife because my child will be the chosen one
It sounds ridiculous but it's effecting me greatly I've spoken to my parter about it and she says god wouldn't give me mental illness to make sure the child is born
But then my mind says maybe it's out of god's hands?
I believe in god but don't follow a religion and this fear is starting to seriously effect me

[Dagony]

I have no desire to follow some "chosen' situation I just want a normal life

But my anxiety makes me worried i don't do anything possible to make it happen il be punished with my fears

She understands and helps me work on it