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can't handle being yelled at

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Why do I get strong thoughts of suicide/self harm when my partner yells at me, he doesn't even have to be "yelling" just when he gets frustrated at me and raises his voice. I know that he shouldn't speak to me like that but why can't I handle it? Sen... View more

Why do I get strong thoughts of suicide/self harm when my partner yells at me, he doesn't even have to be "yelling" just when he gets frustrated at me and raises his voice. I know that he shouldn't speak to me like that but why can't I handle it? Sensitive obviously but to have those thoughts is just so dramatic.Why do I get strong thoughts of suicide/self harm when my partner yells at me, he doesn't even have to be "yelling" just when he gets frustrated at me and raises his voice. I know that he shouldn't speak to me like that but why can't I handle it? Sensitive obviously but to have those thoughts is just so dramatic.beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

I can' t do this anymore.

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Someoneplease help me. I've never been diagnosed with depression before but I'm just so sad all the time. I'm a 16 year old who has entered year 11 recently. I just can't deal with the stress of everything. I have no clue what I'm going to do when I ... View more

Someoneplease help me. I've never been diagnosed with depression before but I'm just so sad all the time. I'm a 16 year old who has entered year 11 recently. I just can't deal with the stress of everything. I have no clue what I'm going to do when I finish school and it scares me so much. I just don't see the point? I just wish I could leave this world and enter a fantasy world. I watch movies and tv shows and play video games and I just wish I could live there. In that world. I wish I could be apart of the cute little communities in there little town In a cartoon world. where it's so care free and everyone knows everyone and they're happy, or be a princess in a fantasy world! It's so ridiculous I no. But just thinking about those worlds and then zoning back into this reality makes me burst into tears and leaves me spiralling back into a black hole. I hate this society. It's full of war and hate and judgemental people. Please just get me out of here. I've felt like this for atleast two years now and I wish I could enjoy life again.

Does it ever get easier?

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I was diagnosed with depression in early 2011 and since then I have been all over the place. Good days and bad days come and go but there are times when I have manic stages where I just can't seem to shut my brain off at all and I'm totally wired... ... View more

I was diagnosed with depression in early 2011 and since then I have been all over the place. Good days and bad days come and go but there are times when I have manic stages where I just can't seem to shut my brain off at all and I'm totally wired... Can't sleep, feel like I'm invincible, send my partner a bunch of texts because I get fixated on the idea that I've done something wrong when I know deep down that I haven't and that I'm just being paranoid. I get so bad that I literally feel like I am going crazy. I'm medicated at the moment because when I'm not medicated I'm horrible to be around. I keep wondering if it will ever get easier, I get so tired, constantly fighting a battle that I feel like I can never win. I'm 23 and I feel like I've lost my own way while all this stuff has been going on, most people I know have their act together but I don't even know what I'm going to be doing with my life in six months time. Being in relationships is difficult too, but I have a great partner right now and he supports me which helps but I can be self destructive. I don't have a lot of friends anymore because one of my previous partners was mentally abusive and very possessive so I pushed away my friends in order to satisfy him. Sometimes my family will argue or I will hear my neighbours (complete strangers) having a fight and my anxiety will skyrocket. I can't be around people when there's tension because confrontation is a huge fear of mine and even though it's not directed at me, it still freaks me out completely. I feel guilty for being mentally ill. Like people will think I'm this way for attention or so that I can get out of working. I can only talk to my mum or my best friend, my boyfriend about this topic so many times before it just gets stale but I'm seeing a psychologist tomorrow so fingers crossed that helps me somewhat control my anxiety at least. Sorry my post is so all over the place, it's just hard to get it all out at once without making it too long of a story for others to read.

Please help me work out whats wrong with me

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Hey friends, I am desperate for help, here's my story;I'm 18 years old and have suffered from anxiety for about 4 years and have been taking medication daily to tackle it.My anxiety is seriosuly unusual, I do get the common symptoms, worrying about r... View more

Hey friends, I am desperate for help, here's my story;I'm 18 years old and have suffered from anxiety for about 4 years and have been taking medication daily to tackle it.My anxiety is seriosuly unusual, I do get the common symptoms, worrying about relationships etc, But my most serious problem is I have the most unusual fears, things like thinking of someone trying to tear a phonebook in half, large things that are not heavy or small things that are, I can't even describe this, The feeling I get is like a severe version of fear of height. I've asked my psychologist about it, and he shrugged it off (Am now getting a new psych this week). But I'm desperate guys, please, if you have any idea of what or why I am suffering from this?Though I feel that the medication has mildly helped me, I can tell that it's still hitting me.Recently I was quite ill with glandular fever and this made my anxiety much worse. Months later I was starting to recover from this however as a result, with a lack of cooperation from my school, I had to drop out of year 12.Things were starting to look up about a month later, however I was then hospitalized with Salmonella poisoning and extremely ill for a few days.Two weeks later I'm home and physically recovering. Though my anxiety has taken a turn for the worse. I havn't eaten in days because all I eat I throw up. Thinking about almost anything negative makes my heart beat quickly and I feel sick. Often I can't calm down and feel forced to take medication.I can't sleep without sleeping medication and have lost over 10 kg, If my new psych doesn't know what it is, I feel that I'm only going to get worse.Please guys, does anyone know anything that may be helpful?

How can I help

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My friend has really bad depression. Her parents and brother are abusive, and child protective services haven't done anything to help. So fare the over the last week she has tried to kill herself twice, and she has also tried a lot of times over the ... View more

My friend has really bad depression. Her parents and brother are abusive, and child protective services haven't done anything to help. So fare the over the last week she has tried to kill herself twice, and she has also tried a lot of times over the last 4 years. She has tried going to her school councillor for help but they haven't done anything. Not long ago one of her best friends killed them self. Two of her other friends and I have tried talking to her and have tried to help, but she says unless she can get answers and a solution there isn't any point in trying. I don't know how to help her what should I do?

Struggling with depression

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Everyday I get the same feeling; that I am worthless. It all started last year when one of my 'friends' started annoying me on purpose when we were playing a game. Later on she insulted me, and when I didn't reply, she called me a wimp for not being ... View more

Everyday I get the same feeling; that I am worthless. It all started last year when one of my 'friends' started annoying me on purpose when we were playing a game. Later on she insulted me, and when I didn't reply, she called me a wimp for not being a true girl and standing up for myself. I told my other friends and they were mad at her for saying that, so they sided with me. A few days later we were playing a game when the girl comes up to us and starts talking with them. My friends started talking to her and ignoring me when I tried to ask them a question. After that I made a new group of friends and I felt better and didn't have anything to worry about. This year I failed in a lot of things, my report card, leadership positions and my hobbies. My best friend didn't hang out with me at all and I felt different in a bad way.I got stressed whenever we did a test and it got harder to get to sleep at night. The boy I have a crush on admitted to my best friend he liked her and now they are going out. It got harder to keep being myself because everyone found me annoying. I told my best friend I was feeling really depressed and she supported me for a while but then told me she didn't want to support me until I felt better. The girl who bullied me started hanging out with my friends, and now, they would rather spend time with her then me. I made a lot of bad choices and now I feel like I don't have any friends. What should I do to start feeling better?

My mother has ruined almost every part of me

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I never really get to speak about how I'm feeling without being shut down, so my thoughts sort of take over my mind and before I know it I'm breaking down again. I feel like I only really have one issue in my life right now and that's my family. My m... View more

I never really get to speak about how I'm feeling without being shut down, so my thoughts sort of take over my mind and before I know it I'm breaking down again. I feel like I only really have one issue in my life right now and that's my family. My mother has ruined almost every part of me. I don't even know where to begin. I've been battling her for years and right now I'm trying to do all I can to move away from here and just get my life back. I want to feel happy about myself again. Every bit of a responsibility that a mother should have is put on me and for years I thought this was normal, but now I'm truly exhausted. She calls me hurtful things, tells me to leave, she's put me in debt, she threatens me. The worst part is, she has a gambling problem that only I know about, every day is different depending on if she won money or lost it. Sometimes I hope that my mum always won money so she would treat me kindly but at the same time, seeing her treat her children respectfully for five minutes over money just sickens me. I've never been one to put my problems on other people, sometimes I've tried talking about how I'm feeling but I get told to save it for another time or to really have a think about sharing how I feel because I'll upset other people. I feel like i've already gone through the stage in my life where I could distract myself. Now I have no choice but to face everything every single day. I try to convince myself that one day I'll get out of here, I'll be happy and everyday is one step closer but then I have those days that I can't do anything. My thoughts turn negative and I feel trapped and just heart broken. I'll never be able to push past the thing's that my mum has done, I know they are going to stay with me, but I just need someone to talk too who I won't affect. I try not to bottle thing's up anymore because I know how angry I can get and how the bad decisions that come with it all just add to everything. I know that she doesn't want me around, it just hurts that it's only because I'm her daughter, I've done nothing but help her, be there for her and give her everything she ever wanted. Now i'm alone, crushed and I have nothing. And that's what she gave me in return. I don't know how many times I can get back up.

BPD and eating disorders

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When I was 17 my doctor told me that they may diagnose me with borderline personality disorder but it may be falsely diagnosed because of the anorexia. I was diagnosed at the beginning of this year (now 19) and I still dont understand what it is. Whe... View more

When I was 17 my doctor told me that they may diagnose me with borderline personality disorder but it may be falsely diagnosed because of the anorexia. I was diagnosed at the beginning of this year (now 19) and I still dont understand what it is. When I think about it all of my problems stem from my anorexia, and I believe that anorexia has caused all my other diagnoses. Does this make sense? It was after my anorexic symptoms began when I first got diagnosed with depression, and when I began recovery that was when I started self harming and then diagnosed with BPD. Now I worry that they are focusing on treating my BPD symptoms but it has stemmed from anorexia and recently I have found that through controlling my food again the BPD has settled down so im really unsure. Is it anorexia causing these problems, or BPD & depression?

im only fourteen

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I honestly don't know what to do anymore and I think I need help but im scared. Just everyday is so hard to do anything and it feels like a vicious, never-ending cycle of sadness. I am so scared to get help, I don't know what I would say or what I wo... View more

I honestly don't know what to do anymore and I think I need help but im scared. Just everyday is so hard to do anything and it feels like a vicious, never-ending cycle of sadness. I am so scared to get help, I don't know what I would say or what I would do. I feel like my dad (I have divorced parents) wouldn't believe me and my little sister would see a side of the world that I really don't want her to see at a young age (11). But on the other hand, I don't want to keep feeling like this. Music has helped me get this far but its like a nightmare. No matter how fast I run, I won't move. I've taken those online depression tests and they all come back with depressed but I can't take that seriously. I just want to feel happy again.

Relapsing?

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My story: When i was 7 years old, my mum, dad, brother and I moved from England to Australia, leaving all our family behind... It was always assumed we would return for a holiday, but... it's been 10 years and we still haven't, people only visit year... View more

My story: When i was 7 years old, my mum, dad, brother and I moved from England to Australia, leaving all our family behind... It was always assumed we would return for a holiday, but... it's been 10 years and we still haven't, people only visit yearly. I'm only mentioning this because i came across the thought that this could be what triggered my problem. Which is weird. What would happen,if I stayed at a friends house I'd start feeling weird and missing home and have a panic attack..But then it turned into every Sunday night before school. I would get this daunting feeling, and become unable to fall asleep, I'd end up having a panic attack. The only way to calm me down would be to sleep on my parents floor, i just felt safe there. The following morning iId be fine going to school, so that was never the problem... Then one year i think, i had no problems, i would be fine... A year or so later, it came back (soIi think, I'm not sure if it's possible) - What would happen is, the same time, of the same day every week, I would have the same symptoms and end up vomiting..AND, the only way I would find comfort and feel better is by falling asleep on my bedroom floor. Weird hey? (I don't know if they relate, i read somewhere anxiety can make you vomit). Anyway, I have just had my 2 weeks school holidays, for my final year of school and a few hours before bed I could tell I was feeling anxious and didn't want to climb into bed... When i did and all my friends had gone to bed, I started getting anxious. I knew I would lie there wide awake, and constantly check the time, to see it only get later and later, and myself get more and more anxious... It's just what happens to me, I started getting really emotional, i wanted to call my best friend but I knew as soon as the phone call ended i would feel sad and alone again... I texted my mum asking for a hug and she came in and spoke to me for a good 10-20 minutes and suggested maybe it was moving from England that has caused this whirlwind of events.. She gave me a hug, which instantly made me feel better, but at the same time, made all these emotions want to go wild. She went to bed around 40 minutes ago, and so far i feel better, but then I think that's because I'm just distracting myself online and when i go to bed, I'll be back to being sad again. I was just curious as to whether or not people have an idea as to what's causing me to be like this? and/or what I can do about it. Thank you x

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