Suicidal thoughts and self-harm

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Do you have a safety plan?

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Safety planning involves creating a structured plan – ideally with support from your health professional or someone you trust – that you work through when you’re experiencing suicidal thoughts, feelings, distress or crisis. Your safety plan starts with things you can do by yourself, such as thinking about your reasons to live and distracting yourself with enjoyable activities. It then moves on to coping strategies and people you can contact for support – your friends, family and health professionals. The safety planning model was developed in the US by suicide prevention experts Barbara Stanley and Gregory Brown. It has been used extensively by US veterans’ health organisations, hospital emergency departments and high schools, and there is strong evidence that it works. Many health professionals in Australia also use some form of safety planning to support clients experiencing suicidal thoughts or feelings, or after a suicide attempt. beyondblue has an app you can use to create a safety plan, called BeyondNow. The BeyondNow app takes the principles of safety planning and makes it even easier to use – so rather than carrying around a piece of paper, you’ve got it on your phone at all times. It’s free to download from the Apple Store or Google Play. If you don’t have a smartphone or would prefer to use your desktop or laptop, BeyondNow is also available to use on our website. Do you have a safety plan? Do you have questions around how you might create one, or fill out some of the sections? This thread is for discussing ideas around creating a safety plan, and sharing tips about what has been most useful about this process for you. Below are two videos featuring Peter and Nic, who have both used safety plans successfully. Peter Nic

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Life gets pretty hard sometimes and many people in this online community have had times where they have thought about hurting themselves or ending their life. This can be a stressful and at times overwhelming experience, and this section is here to help members who have had these experiences. This is a place to share where you are at, seek ideas for help and know that you are not alone. We are here to create a safe environment for everyone. Please do not provide any details about any plans/ideas that you may have had to hurt yourself, and importantly, help us to understand if you are safe by letting us know in the post. Making comments that let us know that you are having thoughts, but are safe, helps us to know that your conversation can continue without interruption, and that we do not need to put any further follow up for you in place. This section will not be for everyone.It shows posts from people who are distressed, offers public replies to these posts, and encourages people to come back and share how they got past that difficult point in time - what worked, what didn’t and how they now approach these difficult thoughts. It is important to think about what you want from the forums, what information you need and what threads will be helpful to your situation, rather than reading everything that is posted. For some people this section might be difficult to read – if it is not helping how you feel, then please consider moving to another section. This section, like the rest of our forums, is closely monitored and all posts are reviewed by moderators before publication. Moderators will also ensure that anyone needing follow up will be provided with information about how to access further support. This section remains a discussion forum focused on helping each other through the dark times, it is not a crisis support service. Any posts that do not abide by the community rules will not be published. Unlike other areas of the forum, threads in this section will be closed after a period of one month of inactivity. If you are in crisis or need immediate help, assistance is not available via these forums. Please call Suicide Call Back 1300 659 467, Lifeline 13 11 14 or contact emergency services on 000.

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self sabotage?

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hi, new to posting here. the situation is stupid. i was at a friends at a get together with maybe 10 ppl, most i know well a few i didn’t. a guy left to go home. when i left later i saw he left his vape on the couch, and i put it in my back pocket. i left her apartment, and he was on his way back upstairs to get it. i just told him i hope he found it. i couldn’t just say “oh yeah i have it” or try to follow him upstairs and naturally procure it for him. so i just left. idk what i was thinking, it can’t just magically disappear. he’s going to think someone stole it. which i did. i feel like shit about it. i hate smoking and i hate the feeling of nicotine. recently i had some bloods done to check my testosterone levels (i’m a trans guy) and my doctor told me my liver wasnt looking good, asked if i drank a lot. i think i might. i sometimes drink a whole bottle of wine just while watching movies in the evening. i join my parents for a couple glasses of wine. i also go out with friends and drink at least once a week, and usually 8 standards minimum. so in my head i wonder if i took the vape bc i want a substitute for drinking..? but i also feel i could just knuckle down and not drink by myself firstly, don’t drink with parents, and curb drinking with friends. but when my friends do things we usually go clubbing or house party kinda situations. i feel dysphoric and have stopped doing any form of exercise for at least 8 months now. or maybe i’m just lazy and can’t change my life style. i can’t tell which is the truth. i have top surgery booked for february next year, but i’m scared of telling myself everything will improve after that, bc deep down i think it’s a lifestyle choice not my dysphoria. but also dysphoria obviously doesn’t help and does impact me but i don’t think it’s the only reason. i feel anxious immoral and awful for taking the vape. idk why that vape feels so symbolic to me rn. i feel like i should like hurt myself or smthn to somehow prove i need help. i have tried to “get help” but found it easy to show how these fucked up parts of myself happen so irregularly, and drinking hasn’t really presented itself as an addiction or anything serious. i feel like i’m in a grey area where i could get my shit together or slide into a dark place. but i mostly exist as a perfectly studious, working self sufficient person. just shit like this creeps up and makes me unable to sleep some nights. guh.

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I need help

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Hi. I don't know how to start this or anything but lately I've been struggling really bad with suicidal thoughts. I hate it. I don't like it. It's mainly caused by relationship problems. I just can't seem to keep one and I fall for people too quickly which leads to me getting hurt easily and then constantly feeling like I'm not good enough for anyone. I over think slot in relationships and it messes it up. I don't know why I do the things I do I just do it. I've been depressed for 5-6 years or so now but the suicidal thoughts have been for about 2 years. I always feel like it would be better for me to just go. I can't leave my mother tho but at the same time the thoughts and I guess you could say voices are eating me alive. I know I need therapy but I can't bring myself to do it. I always say "why should I? They don't know me so how are they gonna help" I don't want just a random person to help me. I want someone I trust. Someone I love. Someone that genuinely cares about me. I could always talk to my mum but I feel like talking to her would make her think differently but she's not like that's she's very supportive and is always pushing me to do my best but I just can't seem to go and talk with her. I just want someone. I'm tired of trying to do this on my own. I can't. It's too much

Am i strong or weak

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What you know about suicide? I am recently seperated and i have a beautiful terminally ill three year old. i'll probably out live my son.. well.. im always so sad life's so boring, i work for less than minimum wage in a very physical job, im paranoid as hell and i dont do drugs, mostly. I just want more money, because contrary to the famous quote.. -it does buy happiness Yea, i think thats all i need, money would probably actually be the cure for my depression and lack of care of my own life. funny. Apparently these are my thoughts right now, huh Ive got to be there for my son, i dont want him to lose me, or my dad to lose me either. im survivng for them.. they would have a clue, i always tell them how great my life is going. my friends think im a happy person. going through some shit, but honestly im pretty sure they're probably as depressed as me, we wouldnt talk about it though, we're tough men arent we? i dont know why im writing this, what do you guys actually do here?

Can't cope with life anymore

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Hi everyone, I'll start by going over some backstory about myself. I've studied a few tafe courses the last three years, spent a lot of time clearing out my previous house before moving as well as losing weight. I've never had a job or a girlfriend. And now, I honestly don't care about those things anymore. I cry every night or every second night and I can't sleep until the early hours of the morning. I've tried to seek help but haven't had any luck with the psychologists I've seen. I've got burnout really bad this year and had to take a few months off from uni because I couldn't cope with it. My dad has burnout worse than I do. I'm not sure how I can really help him though with the issues I'm going through. Recently, I'd say a lot of my days are terrible. Some are okay and even good but those are few and far between. I'm so sick and tired of life in general. I've tried my best but I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm currently enrolled in a uni course but I don't feel like I deserve to be there. It's like I'm taking up a spot that another student should have. I also don't believe I'll ever be happy on a regular basis. I would give up all my material possessions like my figurines if I could truly be happy the majority of my life. The only thing I want to do is encourage a few people at uni before I die. I want other people to do well in life and the course regardless of what happens to me. Suicide has seemed like my only option for a number of years now. I could have been happy but it's not meant to be. Moving hasn't changed that and I'm surprised at how stressed, depressed and anxious I've felt in 2021. I've also been pushing people away for a number of years now so they don't get to know me. My death would only hurt them too. Besides they're better off without me. I think I've wasted my life and any shot at happiness. I'm 27 years old and I dread having to live even a few more years on this planet. My parents by comparison are in their 60s and I told them that I wouldn't want to reach their age. That's too long for me. The only thing that has kept me going the last few years has been helping my mum and dad along with studying. Now that we've moved my parents don't need me to help financially as much. I'm also not enjoying uni because I'm socially inept, depressed and anxious. I'm seeing my gp next Wednesday for medication. At least that numbs my feelings, I suppose. Has anyone else got any advice? Kind Regards, Stressed Guy

Can't keep doing this...

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Hi, sorry for the gloomy post but things are tough... I have psychotic depression amongst other stuff. A month ago I had a miscarriage which has been hard. I don't have alot of support and have lost all my friends. I need to give up this fight, I've ... View more

it’s 2 am and i feel alone

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i suffer from anxiety and depression and when it’s night time and i’m by myself i think about all the trauma that has happened in my life and how low of a place i feel i am in right now. i am getting support and talking to psychologists and paediatricians but i still feel like i’m not doing good and nothing will get better. and i cant sleep when i’m having thoughts like these and being stuck in my own head even though i took my sleeping tablet. i catch myself being awake all night till early in the morning and it’s so unhealthy and exhausting. i feel like a waste of space a lot of the time even if people tell me i’m not. i feel like i’m stuck in this stage of my life and i honestly have no clue what to do with myself anymore. i don’t have any suicide plans but a lot of the times i feel like i don’t want to exist anymore and what is the point of being here. and i’m so scared to tell people that i know this because i don’t want to go to a psych ward or something. like i just don’t know, i’m so stuck in my own thoughts and it is so exhausting.

i just dont know what to do.

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its just been really hard lately and i need some advice. everyone is always leaving and picking other people over me. i just want one person to care, i need someone to care. but nobody does and i dont know what to do. these thoughts keep running through my mind and its scary, i dont want to live anymore. but im still scared to die. i feel like my parents just dont care, they have so much to deal with my everything else going on in their lives, and i dont want to burden them, so i havent said anything. the only friends i have left arent real friends, they dont care about me. they just use and betray me, and it hurts. so i just dont know what to do. ive been self-harming for a while because its the only way to take away pain from what im feeling. people always dismiss my feelings and no ones ever really cared, but idk, i feel like this is real. and its becoming too much. ive written letters to everyone i love and even the people who have made me feel this way. people say suicide is a permenant solution to a temporary problem, but this isnt going away and its been here for a while now. im just looking for someone to care, to give me advice because i just dont know what to do.

Wanting to die

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Has anyone live with TTM. Always had Bad luck all ur life. Told ur ugly useless. And ur owe family tell you to go away they are busy! all you have is ur owe beep dark depressing thoughts, and laughing when u talk about suicide. That where I am!

Depressed

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Cant shake the dark feeling any ideas that I could try?

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