Hi Tim thanks for responding. I was employed by a large company. Very toxic workplace. In my first year I witnessed bullying but was not a target.
I got promoted to a new team and almost instantly began being bullied by my previous supervisor. Spreading rumours, saying negative things about my work ethic, my new position, the way I look, talk, making threats to have me fired.
I informed my new supervisor of everything as it happened. Nothing was done. Over the course of the next year it began to wear me down.
I confronted the bully twice. The first time asking him to stop. Again 6 months later. I was shaking and crying.
That was my last day at a job that ultimately turned me into a completely non-functional person.
I have been through much, much worse in my life and have fought my way through to heal and survive. I am beyond humiliated that bullying from some idiot has broken me. Im a grown woman!
I don't sleep. My hair is falling out. I have daily panic attacks. Nightmares. I don't leave my bedroom. I no longer am in a relationship with my partner of 22 years because I can't be around anyone. Not even my 16 and 18 year old children. I try my best to be their mum but...
My ex looks after the kids, the house- everything. I only leave the house to go to the doctor. I wish I could be alone and not see anyone ever again. I feel safer alone. Noises make me jump. Someone being behind me makes me jump. I feel on full alert 24 hours a day. For 18 months. I am chronically depressed and rarely get out of bed. I'm gross to be honest.
I see a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Im on meds. I want to be better. I dont want this to be my life.
Workers comp is a nightmare and if it wasn't a financial necessity, I'd drop my case like a hot potato.
The investigation was brutal. So many lies and horrible rumours to discredit me. 270 pages of statements. The investigation made my symptoms worse.
Luckily some people weren't too scared to tell the truth in their statements. I have good evidence. My lawyer is confident and I have faith in him.
The workers comp system is horrible. Do people actually win these types of cases? My lawyer says yes. I just don't know. Its a huge multi-national company. Im one little person.
I hate what I am. I hate what the bully has done to me. I can't understand why I can't just get over it! I feel weak and stupid and embarrassed. And tired.
Thanks for listening.
