Last year around this time, my cat passed away because he was very old.
When I saw him dying at home, I cried a little bit, but I wasn't a
wreck. My parents were also sad, but I don't think they cried. I went to
work because otherwise I would have be...
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Last year around this time, my cat passed away because he was very old.
When I saw him dying at home, I cried a little bit, but I wasn't a
wreck. My parents were also sad, but I don't think they cried. I went to
work because otherwise I would have been at home by myself with my cat
dying which would have been hard. All day, I felt really weird. When I
got home, my Mum told me she made an appointment with the vet to put him
down. When we got there, and this is going to sound strange I guess, we
probably seemed quite happy. When my Mum saw the vet she said "Here is a
very old, little Grandpa" and the vet asked us how long we had him for
and I said since I was in year 5. At the time I was thinking more about
how I was happy that my cat lived a long, happy life rather than the
fact that I was losing him and I think my Mum was thinking in the same
way. The vet took him to the other room to see another vet to organize
things and then came back out and put him back on the table and Mum and
I were patting him as the injection was going in and then he passed
away. The vet then asked if we wanted some time alone and I said I would
so she went to the next room and closed the door and as Mum and I were
talking, I heard her quietly laugh and say to the other vet "I think I
would have been worser off." The next day, Dad wrote an email to my
sisters to let them know that he passed away and my older sister was
sad, but she wasn't broken (I think she thought of it in the same way I
did as well), but my younger sister was extremely upset. I think his
passing actually affects me more these days than it did on the day. I
sometimes have dreams about him and wake up crying and when I think
about him, it makes me emotional, like right now. Only just a few days
ago, I told my parents what the vet said and they said "She just meant
she would have been more upset if it was her" and I said I know, but it
felt like she was also saying that I didn't care much about my cat and
my Mum said "if she meant it like that, she wouldn't have that job, she
would get fired." I'm still not sure though because I've had people
bully me straight to my face several times and my parents couldn't even
tell they were bullying me or when they could, they would just make
excuses for the person and laugh it off. Also, the vet didn't think I
would be able to hear her.