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my mum died and i miss her badly.

shesawallflower
Community Member
Im 28 years old and my mum died VERY EXEXPECTEDLY with a massive stroke/brain annerysm in November 2017. It was quite confronting as my brother, dad and I sat with her for days in ICU on life support completly unconcious where we told we had to turn it off. It all went so fast and we just had to deal with what happend. Its been a year and a half but Im feeling like the grief is becoming a little harder. People who have/are experiencing greif. How long does it last? I know there is no right or wrong answer and I know everyone is different. But im just so mentally tired and drained from being so sad and not letting go. My boyfriend has been so supportive, I think its so unfair for him that I am so emotional all the time.
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Summer Rose
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi shesawallflower

I am really sorry for the loss of your mum. I know it's really hard to let go and I know it cuts deep.

I lost my dad unexpectedly to a massive heart attack, so I understand your feelings of shock and disbelief. Then comes the realisation of how unfair it all is, and heaps of anger, saddness and emptiness.

It took me two years to feel normal again after my Dad died. I actually found it really hard to let go of my grief because it felt like a betrayal of him, like somehow I was letting go of him.

It helped to write about him. I wrote down funny stories, little details about his personality, character and habits and many little things that I wanted to be sure I would never forget. I also stuck photos and some momentos onto the pages.

When I was done, I felt like I had "him" in my journal and somehow it was okay to let the grief go because I would always have him in my journal.

I hope this makes sense to you.

I want you to know that it's okay to grieve. Everybody is different and it's a very personal process. But please believe me, you will get to the light. And, when you do, you can live your best life. The life your mum would want for you.

Kind thoughts to you

White_Rose
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

Dear Shesawallflower

Welcome to the forum. This is a good place to talk about your loss as we all have experienced loss in some way.

My mom died nearly 20 years ago and I still miss her. Not with the gut wrenching hurt I had at the beginning but sometimes hard to manage. Moms are special people in our lives and when they pass away suddenly it is a huge shock to the system. My mom slipped over leaving a pensioner Christmas party (in the UK) and was taken to hospital. She died on Christmas Day while I was in Australia so I did not get the chance to say goodbye.

No matter how sudden or unexpected it is when someone we love passes away, it still hurts. It does get better I promise you, but not all at once. Gradually the grief gets less until you can remember without the pain, leaving a regret.

I have often suggested family and friends get together to remember the person they love. Set aside an afternoon, bring out the photos and remember the funny stories. Perhaps plant a tree or make a small garden. Paint a picture and invite everyone to add to it. Eat your mom's favourite treat. Sometimes we get a bit shy talking about those who have died. We want to push it down and hide it away. Instead we can celebrate that person's life, remember their mannerisms and comments, smile at the family photos.

Don't be afraid to mourn. It's natural and normal and as you say, it's different for anyone. Along with the grief remember the good stuff. It is good to remember and I have found, a certain comfort. It is exhausting to cry so much. Please try and care for yourself before you get totally overwhelmed. I worked all day and as soon as I get home I would cry all evening. But it does pass until you can remember with a smile.

You will never forget your mom, how could you, but the memories will become more gentle and reassuring. Try to hold on to that when you feel there is nowhere to go. I still talk to my mom at times. It helps. Cut yourself some slack, grieve for as long as you need but also remember the good times.

Mary

blondguy
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

Hello Shesawallflower

I feel the pain in your words....and understand your grief...My dads name was Raymond

My dad passed in November 2016 from heart failure and it seems like a few days ago

my kind thoughts for you

Paul

Sleepingbeauty444
Community Member
You sound exactly like me. I lost my mum a year ago and I feel like I’m coping less now than I was back then.

Mi8
Community Member

Hi shesawallflower,

I'm wondering the same thing. My Mum died 10 months ago and some days it doesn't feel like it's getting any easier. I was lucky to have my Mum longer than you did but its still hard some days.

I don't think it ever goes away.. We just learn to live with it.

Take care

fred2018
Community Member
Sorry to hear about the death of your mother and the speed at which it happened , I suppose thats nature a bit unpredictable to say the least. My mother died of cancer in 2017 and it got messy with emergency hospitals visits and the like. I like talk to my mum sort of like an imaginary friend or ' spirit' its a nice way of keeping our relationship going even if she is not here physically. I am probably on the same timeline as you for grieving , I think you will just have times where you cry out of nowhere, music does it for me and tha'sall good its all just a natural process. White Rose and others have made some good suggestions that ill note and that might help you to celebrate your mother.

Blusky
Community Member

I am so sorry for all of your losses. I lost my dad ( my rock) 6 years a go. The first 2-3 years were the hardest for me. It does get easier, everyone’s timeframe is different, take the time you need to grieve and reach out to people, even professionals they can really help you ( they helped me).

Writing things down aslo also helped me, I went to his place of rest and read the letter to him. I’ve never cried so much ( you know when you cry so hard you are sick). After ward I felt a sense of closure.

I wish I could help you more shesawallflower.

Stelly14
Community Member

My Mum had a massive stroke in April i came home from work to find her on the floor unable to talk or get up although i know she knew it was me she was trying to talk to me. she passed away 16 days later. She was everything to me it was just me and her my whole life. The pain of loosing her is unbearable and its so hard and its a struggle. one minute i feel like im doing ok and the next i am in so much pain that even my chest hurts and its hard to breathe. i have never felt so much heartache sadness and fear in my life it has left me feeling exhausted and feeling defeated.i feel like i should of felt that something was wrong and come home from work early. i just want to remember my mum in a nice way and not keep remembering all that bad things that happened.

Hello,

We at the Beyond Blue Mod Support Team are very sorry to hear about the loss of your mum. It would have been a very painful way to lose someone. Feeling up and down and having good days and bad days is a normal part of grief. If you feel like some phone counselling support might be helpful today we'd recommend getting in touch with Griefline - 1300 845 745. GriefLine provides counselling support services free of charge to individuals who are experiencing loss and grief.  

Losing a loved one is one of the hardest things we can go through. Reminding yourself of all those beautiful memories you have with your mum could be helpful on days like today where all you are  feeling is grief and sadness. Perhaps you could even write some of the happy memories down for you to read later? 

We wish you all the best and really thank you for posting on the forum today.

Kind Regards,
Mod Support.