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22 yo girl, can't walk of work due to foot pain.

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Hi Everyone,I'm new here so here goes:Recently I seem to have achieved everything I was aiming for.. I finished my Course after passing year 12 and then gained a job in the management industry working full time, which I have been doing now for 2 year... View more

Hi Everyone,I'm new here so here goes:Recently I seem to have achieved everything I was aiming for.. I finished my Course after passing year 12 and then gained a job in the management industry working full time, which I have been doing now for 2 years. At the time I was living with a friend however felt lonely whilst I was there. After feeling like that for so long I decided to join the gym and start going out more often which led me to meet my boyfriend.. He is very kind.We then decided to moved out together and also with one of my childhood friends, as we believed we could create a positive happy home for all of us.. Which we have and it is amazing. However 3 months ago I felt a sharp pain in my ankle. This has left me unable to weight bare on my right leg.. Which is a result of being born with a club foot. After seeing numerous doctors they suspect it is a pin from a surgery 6 years ago that is irritating something and causing pain. I have been waiting over 2 months to get an appointment with an orthopaedic doctor and am still waiting so I don't know how long this will continue for. However until then I am unable to work, drive or even walk and am stuck in the house all day. I'm scared because I'm not working, and there will be a point where I run out of money to even be able to pay the rent.. I have just applied for centerlink however I am still worried sick.I'm also bored at home, which is giving me time to think about more and more things.. For example my parents divorce to even little arguments I've had with friends, I feel like it's al my fault. All I do is look forward to going to sleep at night so I'm out of pain, and don't feel sick from the medication I'm on, and every morning I wake up I cry because I don't want to be awake. And even if I do have things to do Im just not motivated.Everytime I try to think of something with a clear head I have a million thoughts and worries running through my mind and I can't focus, and all I can do is panic and can't breathe. This happens daily.. and when it happened today, I had suicidal thoughts, and I did want to act on them, which I guess has led me to post here. I was admitted into a children's psych ward when I was 17 as I was very suicidal, however since then I haven't taken medication or spoken to anyone, so I guess I just needed some advice. I'm sorry for such a long post, however if you have taken the time to read it, I am ever so thankful and appreciative. - SadMomo beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0cm; mso-para-margin-right:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0cm; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi; mso-fareast-language:EN-US;}

Mother's emotional abuse has triggered my depression

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Heyya, so I'm 19 and still living at home with my mum. I have Generalised anxiety disorder and depression, and am on medication as well as seeing a psychologist. Im struggling so much at the moment! I went throught a good couple of weeks where it see... View more

Heyya, so I'm 19 and still living at home with my mum. I have Generalised anxiety disorder and depression, and am on medication as well as seeing a psychologist. Im struggling so much at the moment! I went throught a good couple of weeks where it seemed like everything was getting better and i was genuinely getting through the day without any bad or anxious thoughts, and was sleeping properly and everything! It was amazing!! However, depression has hit me like a brick again. Im struggling to keep down food because of the anxious stomach ive got going on, and struggling to sleep because my thoughts wont stop. It was all triggered I think because I've recently started piecing parts of my life together and have realised my mother is emotionally abusive. We argue about silly things, and then she turns everything around to ensure i take the blame for whatever has happened. She makes me feel guilty for spending money to buy things for myself, even though I work ridiculously hard for my money and i end up paying for most of OUR groceries and living costs because she has a massive gambling problem and loses all her pay. She does things like tell me im selfish because i refuse to gamble with her and then doesnt talk to me and doesnt come home until a ridiculous hour of the morning. anyway, I spoke to my psych about all of this yesterday and normally that would automatically make me feel so much better but i think i might have opened a huge can of worms. I feel like complete crap and i dont really know what to do. I ended up leaving her office and crying the entire train trip home at everything I saw, like happy families, 'normal' families. Everything I wish I had Ive also got another appointment for next week rather than waiting a fortnight, and as much as i want to go im worried that i wont have enough to talk about and ill just be repeating myself. But even if I do repeat myself it just feels so nice to vent. I dont know Im just stressing about that on top of everything else because I dont want to waste my psych's time. Thanks so much for reading xx sorry its so long

I cry every day

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I guess I could say I have 1 true friend today I found out I have to get braces and I already have had glasses sice I was 6 months old. I have one sister that ruins my life. I cry every day. No one knows except me sharing this here. It's like having ... View more

I guess I could say I have 1 true friend today I found out I have to get braces and I already have had glasses sice I was 6 months old. I have one sister that ruins my life. I cry every day. No one knows except me sharing this here. It's like having a knife cut up all your happiness and I feel gifted when I am happy. My life is a reck and I am still crying

new anxiety symptoms? need advice

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To cut a long story short, i was diagnosed with postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome about 2 years ago. this would cause me to get a large variety of symptoms like skipped heartbeats, palpatations and abnormally fast heart rate. This caused me t... View more

To cut a long story short, i was diagnosed with postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome about 2 years ago. this would cause me to get a large variety of symptoms like skipped heartbeats, palpatations and abnormally fast heart rate. This caused me to develop anxieties regarding health, which has now progressed to a generalized anxiety disorder. over the last two years i have handled my anxietys reasonably well, having only a handful of panic attacks however anxiety is always at the back of my head.majority of my anxiety is me being anxious about having anxiety and panic attacks or health anxieties. in the last two weeks i have been experiencing new symptoms. yesterday when zipping my bag up i thought my zip was a cockroach then when i looked again it was a zip. a few days ago i saw an enzelope on the floor and then looked back to see nothing but a lighter colouring on that part of the cement. i have been seeing shadows out the corner of my eye and so on. last night i woke up to a sound that was as if it was in my room, it said the name 'harry'. while im certain it was in my dream i heard the sound when becoming conscious apon waking. has any experienced this before?? any help or advice would be great.

Anxiety first timer...

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Hi,I've decided to get onto beyondblue as a means of direction, reassurance, even distraction.I'm a 24 year old uni student, only just completed my first semester.My mind is CONSTANTLY racing though. I constantly had my phone in my hand, trying to se... View more

Hi,I've decided to get onto beyondblue as a means of direction, reassurance, even distraction.I'm a 24 year old uni student, only just completed my first semester.My mind is CONSTANTLY racing though. I constantly had my phone in my hand, trying to seem keep up with everyone else, comparing myself. If I saw a young pretty thing out partying on fb, I'd go crazy on my phone trying to organise a drinking sesh with "friends", just in order to feel like a carefree 18 year old again. I've had my share of crap relationships, I'm scared to death that I won't be accepted for me?The constant worry of finances, my house, my mums health, my job, my education etc... All these responsibilities that you really don't even understand until they all hit you like a train as an adult.Which is what has happened to me!So many things go on in my head. Constantly. My mind never stops. For the past 6 months I've always felt anxious, but wasn't sure what the hell it was..I just thought I was sick? Until this past Thursday happened.I went to trivia at my local (something I do EVERY thurs with family and friends).And then it hit me. The worst panic attack. I simply couldn't be there. I fell into a heap in the carpark, could barely compose myself. Never been so scared in my life.Friday I got worse. Lost it in my drs office, he prescribed an anti depressant that would calm my mind down over time (serotonin). I kept crying "This isnt me! I'm a strong confident person! what is happening to me!"...But I just couldn't cope. I didn't work all weekend (the bar I've worked at for 3 years). I just COULDNT shake this EXTREME anxiety. In an effort to give me a few hours of relief, my mum gave me some of her medication. A quick fix at most. The most simple exercises like going to the shops, work, getting the mail have me crippled with fear.A 7 hr shift last night ended 2.5hrs in when get this, I felt FINE. then my brain said "But how will you feel when you get home?". BOOM. Panic attack from hell.Today I saw a psychologist, which has left me feeling a TINY bit better.My biggest fear? Is the fear itself. Will I ever overcome this? Will I EVER be normal? I have a cruise in 3 weeks, will I manage it? The idea of a few cocktails has me panic stricken because I know alcohol and anxiety don't mix.Is my life as I know it over? I would do ANYTHING to make it go away for good. I hate how I feel. I hate the fear of fear. I cant eat or sleep.I need to wake up from this nightmare

Three years, seven medications

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In the past 3.5 years, I have been on seven different anti-depressants, seen many counsellors, psychiatrists, psychologists, and dietitians. Nothing has ever made me feel happier or better in any way. No sign of improvement either. I just want to kno... View more

In the past 3.5 years, I have been on seven different anti-depressants, seen many counsellors, psychiatrists, psychologists, and dietitians. Nothing has ever made me feel happier or better in any way. No sign of improvement either. I just want to know what it's like to feel happy again. The hope I have for getting better is diminishing and I just don't know what to do anymore. Any advice would be appreciated!

I am new and would like to say hello! :)

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Hi guys, I am Francesco. I have recently become a member here. I am very interested in what this has to offer myself and everyone here. I have been battling anxiety for quite along time but after some years of counselling it has become a bit more man... View more

Hi guys, I am Francesco. I have recently become a member here. I am very interested in what this has to offer myself and everyone here. I have been battling anxiety for quite along time but after some years of counselling it has become a bit more manageable however I still have my bad days. I have had a lot of social issues which I am trying to work through and at the moment I am searching for the meaning in my life. Here is a little something about myself. I am currently studying Psychology (Honours) and wish to become a counselling psychologist. My aim in life to work to help others and allow others to see the uniqueness in themselves. I am a music and TV show fanatic and I welcome any fun discussions on the topics, haha! I am so amazed at the work that goes on in this organisation and am so happy that i decided to become a part of it. Most of all, I am here to help. Thank you! Francesco.

I need him now more than ever

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So I'm 15 and I have been depressed for about 4 years now and only 1 or 2 people know about it. Since I was 13 I was with this boy who treated me like crap and emotionally abused and manipulated me to do things with him, a couple of months ago he tol... View more

So I'm 15 and I have been depressed for about 4 years now and only 1 or 2 people know about it. Since I was 13 I was with this boy who treated me like crap and emotionally abused and manipulated me to do things with him, a couple of months ago he told me he never cared about me and I was heartbroken. Then I got a new job and hit it off with this new guy and I completely fell for him, he is so sweet and kind and stable. I really thought we had something and then he started dating another girl from our work and kissed her in-front of me. It isn't his fault because I never told him how I felt but now its agony to watch them together and I'm happy that he's happy but I need him. He was the first good thing in my life for 4 years. When I first found out that he was dating someone else, I cried for about 3 days. When you love someone; you have to be brave, brave enough to tell them how you feel, or brave enough to watch them love someone else. I really don't know what to do because I still like my job and cherish my friendship with him and she is a nice girl so I know he isn't unhappy but I feel so down about it. I know I'm young or whatever but he was my world, the minute we started talking we just clicked and he made me so genuinely happy about myself, now when I look at myself in the mirror I just see everything wrong with me and how I'm not her and he will never see me as more than a friend. She is a bit older than him and has a kid, she is 21 and he is 17 and I just feel like a 17 year old boy has to really love her to help look after her kid and pretty much live with her. He lives with his mum but spends every night at his girlfriends and then they go to uni together and work together all night before repeating this process. I know I want him to be happy but is it wrong that I kind of hope it ends? I'm sorry you had to read my petty teenage drama, I hope some of you can relate or give me advice. I will try to reply to all the advice. -Shay xx

Loss of hope and guilt

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hello, im a female in highschool and I kind of just feel 'done' with everything?Ive been seeing a psychologist for over a year, and I think that this persona everyone disregards and calls 'clinical depression' is just apart of me and something that a... View more

hello, im a female in highschool and I kind of just feel 'done' with everything?Ive been seeing a psychologist for over a year, and I think that this persona everyone disregards and calls 'clinical depression' is just apart of me and something that always will be.. I get these darn migraines every night and they drive me insane, and my skin.. oh gosh my skin is always itching. Not mosquito type itching.. It causes me to scratch myself and leave scabs, but I can't control it. I've stopped doing all the things I love, I've lost my dreams, aspirations and goals, I've been in association with self mutilation for various reasons and I just want to go. want to leave. want to sleep for a long while.. But I can't and I try so hard not to let myself for my mum and my dad and my sister but it's so hard. it's so so hard. there's nothing for me now, just the guilt of always hurting people which is all I ever seem to do. I feel like my mind is going against my body.. beyondblue’s clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our Support Service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0cm; mso-para-margin-right:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0cm; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi; mso-fareast-language:EN-US;}

How to cope with my anxiety?

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I'm new to this forum type thing but thought I'd give it a try. I suffer from severe anxiety which causes me to be depressed. I have anxiety attacks all the time which causes me to miss work and other commitments. I find it hard to breathe, get reall... View more

I'm new to this forum type thing but thought I'd give it a try. I suffer from severe anxiety which causes me to be depressed. I have anxiety attacks all the time which causes me to miss work and other commitments. I find it hard to breathe, get really hot and most of the time throw up as a result. I see a psychologist and am on medication but I'm just having trouble finding suitable coping strategies for when I have an attack. I was hoping someone might be able to make some suggestions. Thank you.

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22 yo girl, can't walk of work due to foot pain.

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Mother's emotional abuse has triggered my depression

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I cry every day

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new anxiety symptoms? need advice

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Three years, seven medications

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I am new and would like to say hello! :)

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I need him now more than ever

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Loss of hope and guilt

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new anxiety symptoms? need advice replies: 4

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22 yo girl, can't walk of work due to foot pain.

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Mother's emotional abuse has triggered my depression

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I cry every day

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new anxiety symptoms? need advice

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Anxiety first timer...

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Three years, seven medications

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I am new and would like to say hello! :)

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I need him now more than ever

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Loss of hope and guilt

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How to cope with my anxiety?

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