Wondering about Autism
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Hi, I'm a little unsure as I write this. I'm at a point where I've begun to seriously consider I might be on the spectrum, but I'm not sure what to do with this. Throughout my teens I had a myriad of diagnoses, they all made sense for my symptoms, bu... View more
Hi, I'm a little unsure as I write this. I'm at a point where I've begun to seriously consider I might be on the spectrum, but I'm not sure what to do with this. Throughout my teens I had a myriad of diagnoses, they all made sense for my symptoms, but I'm a big believer that diagnoses are not definitive (they certainly never felt that way). It's easy to identify with a label, but I am now at a point where they are more of a diagnostic/treatment tool that doesn't always serve the patient. Thought I'd preface with that. About six months ago I was diagnosed with adult ADHD, I'm now 21 and the signs were always there, but they were largely blamed on anxiety. I know neurodivergent women are under diagnosed, and I had huge pushback from my family when I was considering ADHD assessment. In the end, I was diagnosed and respond very well to medication. The one thing that didn't really change, and perhaps even became more identifiable, were sensory issues that I had blamed on my OCD but realised had been there my whole life and had continued even as my anxiety became more manageable - I'm in a constant battle between under (novelty-seeking) and over stimulation (panic attacks, burn out, shut down). They were just a little quirk of my behaviour (I hated hugs as a kid, hated certain foods, was generally just that weird little kid that spoke fast, or not at all, and knew too much about certain things), but living with a partner I've realised a lot about myself - my communication style, my obsessiveness, my inflexibility with routine and love for the mundane. I'm rethinking stimming, and listening to the stories of late-diagnosed ASD women is frighteningly relatable. I did the autism quotient test and scored well into the range for ASD, but am struggling to understand the pros and cons of diagnosis. I've been considering it since I was 14, but only in the last year or so have I actually bothered to learn what autism really looks like (outside of gross 90's movies). Advice is appreciated.