Hey guys, I am looking for advice, some guidance regarding a voluntary
admission. I have been struggling with my mental health for as long as I
can remember, A year ago I actually quit my job, packed up and moved
back in with my parents to have a men...
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Hey guys, I am looking for advice, some guidance regarding a voluntary
admission. I have been struggling with my mental health for as long as I
can remember, A year ago I actually quit my job, packed up and moved
back in with my parents to have a mental health gap year of sorts and
really build myself up to start again., I eat healthy and exercise
regularly, I take supplements to help support my body and mind. Over the
last year I have made progress, It has been agonizingly slow, but it is
progress. I feel like finally making the decision to stop trying to push
myself through life like "normal people" can and working on myself has
actually made me very vulnerable, I feel as if I am made of glass and
can no longer push through or shrug things off like I used to. I had
accepted this as a positive as a sign I am no longer lying to myself and
that the resilience will slowly build. I just recently had a positive
test result from the Dr that like depression also comes with a huge
stigma, This has absolutely crippled me and I need help. I have made the
decision that I need to go and have a stay at a Psychiatric Hospital. I
have called both the hospital and my health insurance in the past to
work out what I will be out of pocket for and I am able to upgrade
insurance and access a once in a lifetime mental health waiver. I am
here because there has been many periods in my life where I should have
admitted myself but did not with the excuse of leaving workmates to
cover my work load, not being able to afford rent while not working, and
then of course the ridiculous shame, guilt, feelings of being a burden
and not wanting to make a fuss, and also hesitant as to what to expect.
I have tried all of the tools, this is the last thing in my toolbox to
try, I would love some encouragement or to hear from people who have had
a positive admission that helped, especially whether these feelings of
me not wanting to cause a fuss or feel shame, or that I am overreacting,
are a common problem for others too that delayed them getting help. Also
that I can admit how ridiculous my fears are, as this is not bouts of
mild depression. This is severe, agonizing torture that poison my brain
that have suffocating me for years, yet my brain still tells me that I
am over reacting? Brains are ridiculous.