Tapering off antidepressants
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I have been on antidepressants since 16 years old, I am now 29 (I have been tapering down for 2 years). Even this has been too fast because I have been in post-acute withdrawal symptoms for almost 6 months now. I decided I wanted to come off these as... View more
I have been on antidepressants since 16 years old, I am now 29 (I have been tapering down for 2 years). Even this has been too fast because I have been in post-acute withdrawal symptoms for almost 6 months now. I decided I wanted to come off these as I didn’t like the way they were making me feel, I take a holistic approach to things now. I was emotionally numb, developed a ray of health issues, memory problems, the list goes on. Every minute of every day now I am suffering with depression, SI, intrusive thoughts, insomnia, severe anxiety, panic, worry, constant negative thoughts, mood swings, rage and basically not able to function. The scariest thing is my cognitive function, unable to process information, decision making, concentration, understanding, memory etc. I feel so incompetent and dis-able as simple tasks have become so hard for me. I have to work to make money but it’s awful being there when I’m like this (I work as a Disability Support Worker). I am completely terrified. Constant waves with no windows now. I have lost most people, I know they all look at me and roll their eyes as they think I’m doing nothing to help myself and NEED medication or to bridge to a new one. This makes me feel very alone, it goes against everything I believe in I don’t want to put another mind altering drugs into my body that is THIS hard to come home. I’m struggling to see any future or light here. I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this and things got better? I think I’m holding onto a lot of stored trauma that I’ve never processed. I struggle with self esteem, confidence issues, feeling of not being good enough for anything, constantly doubting myself. If anyone can relate please help me.