I have been on antidepressants since 16 years old, I am now 29 (I have
been tapering down for 2 years). Even this has been too fast because I
have been in post-acute withdrawal symptoms for almost 6 months now. I
decided I wanted to come off these as...
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I have been on antidepressants since 16 years old, I am now 29 (I have
been tapering down for 2 years). Even this has been too fast because I
have been in post-acute withdrawal symptoms for almost 6 months now. I
decided I wanted to come off these as I didn’t like the way they were
making me feel, I take a holistic approach to things now. I was
emotionally numb, developed a ray of health issues, memory problems, the
list goes on. Every minute of every day now I am suffering with
depression, SI, intrusive thoughts, insomnia, severe anxiety, panic,
worry, constant negative thoughts, mood swings, rage and basically not
able to function. The scariest thing is my cognitive function, unable to
process information, decision making, concentration, understanding,
memory etc. I feel so incompetent and dis-able as simple tasks have
become so hard for me. I have to work to make money but it’s awful being
there when I’m like this (I work as a Disability Support Worker). I am
completely terrified. Constant waves with no windows now. I have lost
most people, I know they all look at me and roll their eyes as they
think I’m doing nothing to help myself and NEED medication or to bridge
to a new one. This makes me feel very alone, it goes against everything
I believe in I don’t want to put another mind altering drugs into my
body that is THIS hard to come home. I’m struggling to see any future or
light here. I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this and
things got better? I think I’m holding onto a lot of stored trauma that
I’ve never processed. I struggle with self esteem, confidence issues,
feeling of not being good enough for anything, constantly doubting
myself. If anyone can relate please help me.