Really struggling
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Hi, I'm a long-time reader of the forum. Now in my desperate state, I can't really think of a better way to describe it than that, I am nervously reaching out in the hope that someone/anyone here can relate to me even if just a little bit. First of a... View more
Hi, I'm a long-time reader of the forum. Now in my desperate state, I can't really think of a better way to describe it than that, I am nervously reaching out in the hope that someone/anyone here can relate to me even if just a little bit. First of all I want to say that I've made an appointment with my GP to do a mental health plan. Unfortunately that appointment isn't until 10 Nov so I want to try and help myself between now and then. A bit about me:- I'm 38/f.- In a relationship which I am very happy in, my partner 41/m is amazing.- I have Type 1 diabetes which I've had for coming up 13 years. It has been badly controlled because I turn to sugar and junk food to make myself feel better. I have recently seen an endocrinologist who is great.- The rest of my family (younger sister, younger brother & my mother – no father on the scene for nearly 25 years) is riddled with mental health issues.- I used to be in excellent physical condition, athletic and sporty, and very sure of myself. Never had many friends during school and copped a bit of bullying at the start of high school. Made some good friends when I moved to Melbourne at the age of 18, and never had any problems making friends until I was about 25.- No longer have any friends at all.- My main issue is crippling anxiety which in turn has made me extremely depressed. I can't go out and meet people because I'm petrified that nobody will like me. I can't work or volunteer because I'm terrified that I'll be no good at it, stuff things up, and they'll get rid of me. Even though I know I have good qualities, I struggle to believe and don't believe that others will see them even though in the past I've been told by colleagues and bosses how good I am at my job and various other very nice things. One boss even said I was the company's most complimented staff member ever (by clients) and he didn't know how they ever got by without me.- I procrastinate, get bored easily and can't stick with anything. In the 19 years I've been in the workforce, the longest I have ever been in a job is eight months. Oh god I could probably type all night but will leave it here. Thanks and sorry to anyone who read this far. I know I'm not alone but I feel so alone in this.