Hello everyone, I am active on these forums from a while now and it's
now that I feel that I have to write in this one forum too. Hello I am
here. Hello and thanks in advance for reading and replying. I am writing
now to share my story. I have been s...
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Hello everyone, I am active on these forums from a while now and it's
now that I feel that I have to write in this one forum too. Hello I am
here. Hello and thanks in advance for reading and replying. I am writing
now to share my story. I have been suffering from anxiety since I don't
remeber when and it's a while since depression hit me too. I am on
treatment and I feel a bit more stable. Its not the grief for someone
that got me where I am, but it contributed too. In March, the last one
from my grandfather died. This sad event which happened all of a sudden,
very brutal, made me realise a lot of new things about myself and life
in general, I leaned a lot from the guit I felt from not visiting him
for a long while, from the pain of losing the last representtive of my
childhood. It basically faced me to the death in such a way that I never
faced before. Being in a depressive episode when it happened made it
even harder, was like I couldn't take it anymore of what was happening
in my life. I still feel the pain, still wearing black, still keep him
in my memory and all the stuff that you already assume it's happening to
me. Well, not an usual thing to write, but yesterday, my mom's baby cat
was killed by y father's dog. The little cutie was so amazing, so full
of joy and energy, that her loss meant a lot to us. Unfortualtely, I
can't stop thinking that something similar would happen to my cat also.
I fear for his life, I fear that I'd lose him once he walks one evening
from whatever reason. Events in my life like these ones are important to
me. They make me face how ephemeral life is. I am wondering how will I
face my cat's death when he will get old enough, more that how would I
face my parents' death. I was thinking about taking my life also, in my
most horrible moments of depression, when I was thinking about how down
I was and that made me want to get out and shine more that anytime. I
don't have a concrete question or something, I just wanted to share my
story and maybe find someone here who may have som empathy with me, to
have someone write to their oppinion based on their experience on how
does it feel and how to get prepeared. Meanwhile, I will kepp on with
mourning for the ones I lost and didn't live the bereavement at that
time. That's something else to deal with. Thank you guys.
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