Hi ladies and gentlemen. I am in a very interesting (sad, sick,
confusing, whatever you want to call it) situation regarding my mental
health. I'm 42 year old male who had done so much to try to better his
own life, but I have woefully not achieved t...
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Hi ladies and gentlemen. I am in a very interesting (sad, sick,
confusing, whatever you want to call it) situation regarding my mental
health. I'm 42 year old male who had done so much to try to better his
own life, but I have woefully not achieved the milestones expected of a
successful (or at least, normal) man. In fact, my life circumstances are
so complicated that I have to write a lot more than 2,500 words to fully
describe it. I have been getting excellent mental health treatment, but
still felt really worn down about life but, gladly, not in a position of
even contemplating THAT fatal act. The circumstances were so complicated
and horrendous for me that most people would have not been that
resilient, if they went through the same life I had. Probably, the only
things that stopped things from getting even worse were a stable, decent
immediate family (of which I came from), me not having permanent
disability and me not being sexually abused. I will only scratch the
surface of the issues that have been dragging me down...Me and my family
have always worked to try to make a better and more stable life for
ourselves. Yet, I felt that our journey has been made 100 times harder
than everyone else who put in the same effort, dedication and sacrifice.
I think this is because of many people (in at least two Australian
states) having problems with me and/or my family. Problems ranging from
me having an Italian Catholic father and an Australian Protestant
mother, to me growing up in one of my old city's poorest suburbs. From
me being 1 out of 1-2 high achieving males in Year 12 to me dealing with
the effects of elitism in higher education, work and society. And, boy,
Australia does have a big elitism problem. From my late father's
criminal history (and criminal reputation) to Italian Australians
confusing me on how to actually act like a good enough Italian to blend
in with them! From having both sides of my family treating me and my
immediate family with the grossest of contempt, to me not being able to
get proper help with anything from socialising to getting funding to me
finding a partner. Even within my healthcare career, so many employers,
coworkers, patients, social workers and the big decision makers have
disregarded the contribution that I have made to my work and to their
community so much and so often, that I have been burnt out to the point
where I would never work regularly in my old job again.
See...complicated. Need to make sense of all above. Thanks
How do I talk to my doctor?
