Hi all, First time poster, as have been looking through all of the
resources on the site over the past 24 hours. I feel it is time to start
to do something about my life and how I feel. I think I am suffering
from depression. There are probably a lot...
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Hi all, First time poster, as have been looking through all of the
resources on the site over the past 24 hours. I feel it is time to start
to do something about my life and how I feel. I think I am suffering
from depression. There are probably a lot of reasons for it, things from
the past that stick around in my mind and pop their head up from time to
time. I have been to counselling (EAP) in the past to help with issues
to do with accusing my partner of cheating (I have been cheated on in
the past a few times and there was, and likely still is, lingering
issues there). I likely, especially at this stage of how I am feeling,
have an alcohol dependency. I have been drinking heavily for the past
few weeks. I want to stop this dangerous cycle I am in. My partner is a
Senior Manager at the same place I work, and early in the relationship
she did not want anyone to know about it (which I could understand, it
was a new relationship), however we got engaged and I thought that it
might change as time went on. This has been a major sticking point, and
trigger of the feelings of self-loathing, worthlessness I feel, even
now. At 2 Christmas parties, whilst drunk, major arguments have
happened, and at other times in the year. This has of course caused her
to be upset, angry, and rightfully so. After the most recent one, I have
now had to find somewhere else to live. This was because she wanted me
to find somewhere to live. We actually started talking and trying to
rebuild, but then an issue happened between my daughter and her son. My
daughter does not want to live there anymore, and my partner feels upset
that I actually found somewhere else to live, as we were trying to
reconcile. However the incident with the kids made me think I needed to
have a place where my daughter could feel safe. My daughter has gone to
her mum's now for the second half of the holidays. I feel a little under
pressure to go over there, as I have withdrawn into myself nearly
completely with how I am feeling. That then upsets her and I feel even
worse. I am looking at lots of different resources, online CBT, reading
articles, and calling BeyondBlue, not to mention I feel I should see my
GP and also will be using EAP again. It's just so damn hard sometimes. I
don't really know what to do, but I know I need to get better.
How do I talk to my doctor?
