Hi this is the first time I have visited this forum and I have only read
a few things but so far I can only have a positive outlook on this
community.Anyway my story so far is I am a 24 year old male
Australian/Italian. I was born and raised in Victo...
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Hi this is the first time I have visited this forum and I have only read
a few things but so far I can only have a positive outlook on this
community.Anyway my story so far is I am a 24 year old male
Australian/Italian. I was born and raised in Victoria I had a pretty
normal upbringing as far as I can tell. I was a bit of a class clown in
school. Always doing something to make people laugh or smile. I never
really cared for my grades, I always thought life would be an easy ride.
Boy was I wrong.At the age of 15 I was told I had an anxiety disorder
and given several methods to control it. They didn't work and I quickly
turned to alcohol as a means of remedying the issue. By the time I
turned 18 I was a heavy alcoholic and avid marijuana user. I was getting
bad chest pains and found out I have erosive gastritis so my drinking
quickly ended and my marijuana use went up. I ended up dropping out of
school and getting an apprenticeship as a carpenter.The marijuana
eventually lead to harder drugs like speed and ecstasy. It was fun at
the time my close friends from school were doing it I had just got my
license so being away from home for a few days was nothing out of the
ordinary. Things quickly changed for me, my closest friends from school
could see the drugs were taking control, I lost my job as a carpenter
and had another 8-9 but couldn't hold them down. I started seeing my
friends less and less cause they didn't like what I had become I blamed
them because I was high on drugs and thought I was king and I couldn't
do anything wrong.I would have been around 20 when I started to realize
what am I doing here, I was lucky if I was home 1 night a week, I was
staying on peoples couches I hardly new! I looked like I was zombie, all
my friends from school refused to speak to me... I had nothing and no
one. Or so I thought..I came home one night my Mum barely recognized me
and I broke down and fell to floor crying begging for help! She sat down
on the floor and put her arms around me and I still remember that
glimpse of hope from Mum's touch.After a tough 6 months I was clean I
had a new girlfriend a few new friends, a great job that would be a
career had I stuck to it. I was seeing my GP and a Psychologist
regularly, everything was going fantastic! My girlfriend and I decided
we should move in together. After a day of looking we got a house to
rent and within the week we were living together. I then found out she
would use drugs on occasion, this eventually lead to me using again and
yes abusing them... After what seemed a short month me and my girlfriend
had broken up I was back at Mum and Dads and using prescription pills as
well as meth-amphetamine on a daily basis..I had lost my job, I was on
the doll I had fallen back in with my old "Druggo mates" I would do
whatever I had to, to satisfy my daily cravings. Looking back now I
cannot believe some of the things I am capable of. That lifestyle went
on till 2 weeks before my 23rd birthday I had received a big payment
from family for my birthday, so I went and spent the money on drugs.I
went into a drug induced psychosis, whilst this went on I physically
attacked my brother, luckily I didn't harm him and he was able to hold
me till police and an ambulance arrived.I woke up 4 days later in
hospital, unaware to how I got there why I was there or what the hell
had happened to the last few days... I was released later that day into
the care of my Mum. I was so ashamed and upset at what I had done that I
went and for the first time attempted to take my life... I was found by
an elderly gentlemen and he phoned an ambulance and had it not been for
him I may not be here, I have not met him if I did I would be forever in
his debt so if your reading this thank you for giving me another
opportunity!It has been 16 months since I have used hard drugs (I still
use marijuana as a relaxant), I am in an apprenticeship and just about
to go 2nd year (YAY!) But lately I have started to realize the only
people I associate with are my work mates and my family. I have no
friends outside of my home and my workplace. And I don't know how to
make friends? My doctor's say join local sporting clubs and hobbie clubs
but its easier said than done I am not much of a sportsman and the
hobbies I have had aren't exactly what you find people having a club
for. Before drugs I just had friend that were there from when I was a
kid.
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