Young people

Would just love to talk to someone

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I've just moved to a new town, all my old friends from school have moved on.. I'm a first year apprentice and basically treated like the bitch of the site.. Come home only to go back the next day.. Suicide crosses my mind, maybe it's just easier than... View more

I've just moved to a new town, all my old friends from school have moved on.. I'm a first year apprentice and basically treated like the bitch of the site.. Come home only to go back the next day.. Suicide crosses my mind, maybe it's just easier than living with nothing and stuck in the cycle of life.. Can anyone relate? Or can anyone just offer advice.. God I need it

I feel like I'm drowning

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I used to have problems when I was 12 till 14-ish. I moved schools for year 7, and I didn't know how to make friends with people and open up because I went from a small school to this massive school, and there where 3 classes of my year group. In yea... View more

I used to have problems when I was 12 till 14-ish. I moved schools for year 7, and I didn't know how to make friends with people and open up because I went from a small school to this massive school, and there where 3 classes of my year group. In year 7 I began to crumble, not being used to bullying and put downs and the pressure of other students. In year 8 everything got worse, I had two friends but I felt completely alone, unloved, neglected bot hat home and at school. I used to sit in a tree and cry, and I would literally speak to the moon. It got better at the end of year 9, and I didn't feel as bad about everything. But now, it's come back, it's worse and I don't know what to do anymore. My parents have just split, I eft my mum and two younger brothers to move into my dad's, and he has a girlfriend. They go out a lot and I spend a lot of time at the house by myself, sometimes they both work night shift and I'm home all night by myself and go to school by bike. I go to my mums twice a week too see her and my brothers, but mainly my dogs because I miss them so frickin much. I'm 16 now, have only a few friends. None of them ever message me, I go out to the cinemas alone with my teddy, spend time at the shops with my headphones in and going nothing much but drinking boost juice or something. I spend just about no time with any of my small amount of friends outside of school, inside school my last close friend doesn't even sit with me anymore, ever, she hardly even talks to me now. My closest friend moved school, and my other close friend hardly talks to me either. I can't stand my other peers, and I feel so empty, so damned alone all the time, I watch anime and listen to music heaps and draw to de stress but I have all this work, a broken family, no friends, I don't have my dogs and basically all of my time is spent alone. I don't want to leave the house, I only enjoy basketball, I get into fights with other students and have just about no motivation to do anything. I feel completely alone, isolated from everything. I am emotionally craving but I cannot seek out my own desires, I cannot stand my fellow classmates because they're all so immature and I intimidate them apparently. I'm not sleeping properly and have a lot of trouble finishing my work, or getting good marks, I don't even have my dogs with me. I feel like I am truly drowning now. I have no one to speak too, and I can hardly stand this anymore but I don't know what to do.

Self pressure, life is suffocating me

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Basically I feel like I'm alive, but am completely dead inside... I have all these things I know that I want but I just can't handle it. My head is all over the place and I feel like I just need a time-out from life. I've never been suicidal because ... View more

Basically I feel like I'm alive, but am completely dead inside... I have all these things I know that I want but I just can't handle it. My head is all over the place and I feel like I just need a time-out from life. I've never been suicidal because of the fact that have always been the type of person who wants to go explore the world and experience things, but I just don't wanna be here like this.. It's like my mind is trying to kill me off, and the part that is fighting for the adventures just doesn't have the energy to actually get out there... I'm actually from Europe but moved to Australia to live and work for year - which so far has involved me putting myself out there and getting let down time after time... I just have no fight left in me and yet I feel a pressure from within to get out there and the conflicting feelings just kills me.. I've been in Sydney for about a month now and I have achieved literally nothing. I hate my life and myself at this point.. I almost wish I was suicidal - at least that would be choosing a direction, but instead I'm in limbo and I don't know how to get out. My parents back home are insanely worried about me and are trying to tell me how helpless they feel that they can't do anything for me, but I don't even have room in my head to deal with their feelings about it. I don't even know my own thoughts, let alone have room for them and having to worry about my parents - which then makes me feel even worse for being "selfish"... I honestly don't know what to do..

Am I depressed? Please help.

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I'm not sure whether or not I'm depressed or not, I'm verbally bullied most days and my friend left the country indefinitely recently so maybe that contributes to it but I feel horrible most days and spend most of the day feeling like I'm about to cr... View more

I'm not sure whether or not I'm depressed or not, I'm verbally bullied most days and my friend left the country indefinitely recently so maybe that contributes to it but I feel horrible most days and spend most of the day feeling like I'm about to cry. I also make videos on YouTube and listen to music like Emma Blackery and Doddleoddle despite the fact that I go to an all boys school and it's going to get worse if anyone finds out. I've taken a few depression self-tests that all said moderate or high but when I talked to my parents about it they said that they thought I wasn't and let the matter slide. Despite this I think that at least something is wrong and don't want to bring it up with my parents again. If you have any advice, pleas tell me, because I don't know what to do.

Crushing guilt, and awful nostalgia over breakup

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Hi, I came here today because I felt I needed someone to talk to about how I'm feeling. I think it's unfair to dump these problems on my ex, and it's starting to annoy him, as he is distancing himself from me now. What happened was, he was my first e... View more

Hi, I came here today because I felt I needed someone to talk to about how I'm feeling. I think it's unfair to dump these problems on my ex, and it's starting to annoy him, as he is distancing himself from me now. What happened was, he was my first everything, and long story short, he broke up with me because I would never give him enough space. He loved me more than I liked him, and he asked for breaks sometimes. I don't think I realised at the time the importance of breaks. In my mind it was me+him=happy, and I would always end the breaks early. It hurts a lot, thinking about how he promised one day to 'never take a break again'. Just for my sake, not his. He broke up with me because he just needed the space. He told me on our last day together, that he was so sorry, and loved me, and didn't want me to cry. It hurts a lot thinking he tried to save me from the pain on our last day. I only realised, and he only communicated properly to me, after the breakup, that he actually did need the breaks, and he was stressed out about always being with me, even though he told me he really enjoyed being with me. I can't believe that my selfishness led the first boy who ever truly loved me, to break up with me, and he says he'll never take me back again, and that he is alright now, but is sick of it and doesn't want it anymore. It hurts so much, because I know I didn't fix some problems we had with each other until too late. The last day we had, I did fix an issue he had with me, but he said it was too late by then. I can't deal with the crushing guilt, and the crushing nostalgia. Thinking about things we did, and the things he selflessly bought me, just makes me feel awful. He never pressured me to do anything bad sexually, and I am so happy we felt loved doing that, even though we had issues concerning me to do with that. I'm just in a mess right now, and wake up crying, and really can't see the future. I do have a good life apart from this issue. I feel like I was two people during the relationship. I had to hide it from my parents, and I think this led to a splitting of my personality somehow. The side which was, 'his', and the side I showed to my parents. I know that the relationship wasn't heaven every stage of the way, but the nostalgia is driving me to think that it was. I feel the side that was 'his' has taken over now somehow when before, I would feel the side that didn't think of him often, a lot of the time. Thanks for any reply, I feel absolutely awful.

My struggle with depression

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Many people think that depression is a sad girl, crying in her room because her boyfriend dumped her. To me, depression is hospital stays, isolation periods, not leaving your room, constant darkness pulling you under even when you're just about to br... View more

Many people think that depression is a sad girl, crying in her room because her boyfriend dumped her. To me, depression is hospital stays, isolation periods, not leaving your room, constant darkness pulling you under even when you're just about to break free of it's evil grips. Depression has screwed me up since I was 13. I am now 19. Accompanying my depression is anxiety. Both at the same time is truly the worst feeling in the world, no one can understand unless they have experienced it. Anyway, I was on a happy streak for about 5 months. Then all of a sudden I'm depressed again. I hate waking up of a morning, everything feels dull but I have to pretend that everything is fine. My partner is studying at university and we barely have time for each other. It bothers me, and certainly doesn't help during my dark periods. Not saying we have a dependent relationship, but I like to be cuddled and told it's going to be okay. And I don't have that, and his commitment to university makes the relationship hard. My Dad is abusive and my Mother suffers with mental illness herself, so it makes it hard for me to have anyone to talk to. Tomorrow I am going to see a doctor to discuss these feelings and I'm scared. I have tried medication and therapy many times. medication just makes me sick and therapy can only help for a limited time. I am really struggling right now and need some guidance. I don't want to be stuck on my bedroom floor listening to Pink Floyd's "The Wall" on repeat for the rest of my life (even though it's a brilliant album) I want someone to talk to and empathize with these feelings. I thought an online forum may help. I'd like to hear about your experiences with depression/ anxiety. I would like to know that I am not alone, and that my feelings are valid. A lot of people say it's selfish of me to be upset over my boyfriend being at uni almost always. Or that it's silly of me to feel this way period. Is it?

how do i help a loved one with depression

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Hi, my sister is 14 years old and she has depression, she is becoming distant from the family and including myself like we used to be really close when we were younger and now she has become so distant from me, what do i do ? Also, when ever i try to... View more

Hi, my sister is 14 years old and she has depression, she is becoming distant from the family and including myself like we used to be really close when we were younger and now she has become so distant from me, what do i do ? Also, when ever i try to help her with something like i'll ask her if she needs help with her homework and she'll yell at me saying that she doesn't need my help and it makes me upset because i just want to be there for her. And she hates if i post a photo of us together on social media and she got so angry at me the other day and it was crazy how mad and upset she was, how do i fix this?? why does she get so mad, like she has rages where she just takes her anger out on someone even if they didn't do anything wrong?? I have talked to my parents about this and they talked to her and we took her to a session to beyond blue and then we haven't been back because my parents get so busy with work that sometimes they forget. Can you help me out please

Am I depressed or do I have a personality disorder?

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For quite some time now I have been feeling sad and I tend to cry a lot and I don't really sleep that much. I also get angry and annoyed completely randomly like someone will ask me a question and I will get so annoyed and angry or just the way someo... View more

For quite some time now I have been feeling sad and I tend to cry a lot and I don't really sleep that much. I also get angry and annoyed completely randomly like someone will ask me a question and I will get so annoyed and angry or just the way someone speaks and the way they act and move bothers me so much that it completely ruins my mood. I am a very hateful person, I am sad to admit this but I am. I'm constantly saying "I hate this I hate that". Recently, my parents were talking about how I'm not good at school and were saying how I need to decide what I want to do with my life and I honestly don't know what I want to do, I want to become a journalist one minute then an astrobiologist the next. I also feel like I'm constantly changing and can't decide who I am. It's very difficult to try and explain it but I honestly don't know who I am, I don't know and that worries me so much it makes me so worried. I don't know what I want to do, who I am and I get upset and angry at the most random things that most people wouldn't find annoying. I'm lazy too, I don't want to do anything. I had been dancing since I was 4 years old so around 12 years and I quit this year. I don't want to do anything. I'm self conscious with my body and my face and it makes me cry sometimes, but then next minute I'm happy with myself. I don't really have a good relationship with my dad and I sorta try to make it work but I get so upset about it. My mum works night and day shift just to pay for my school and I feel so guilty about it and I feel so upset about. I have had thought about suicide before but not frequently. I also think about life and how insignificant I am and if the world blew up tomorrow nothing matters, we don't matter so why try so hard and bother at all? But I'm also so afraid of death and I usually have images in my head of my loved ones dying and become depressed because of it and how hopeless Id be without them and I cry so hard, but then I want to be left alone a lot of the time and I find it a burden to hang out with friends most of the time but then I want to go out and have fun. I don't understand what's going on and I'm so upset about it.

i need support

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I just wondering if people could help me to find support as my local headspace has rejected me and I really need help for Depression, I don't know what to do anymore I feel I am left alone and really weak and I feel I have no one to turn to when I re... View more

I just wondering if people could help me to find support as my local headspace has rejected me and I really need help for Depression, I don't know what to do anymore I feel I am left alone and really weak and I feel I have no one to turn to when I really need it. I feel no one cares about me and I feel so so helpless and useless.

So alone, Silent tear

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I now only feel normal when I'm alone in my room, I've isolated myself to the point where I feel nervous all the time around every single person, it's crazy, the heavy feeling of dread, dullness, confusion and hopelessness , I've almost literally bee... View more

I now only feel normal when I'm alone in my room, I've isolated myself to the point where I feel nervous all the time around every single person, it's crazy, the heavy feeling of dread, dullness, confusion and hopelessness , I've almost literally been doing nothing at all except staying home for the past 6 months,having really nothing much to say is the sad thing due to the fact I've been doing nothing, I feel so empty and clueless I can't even fake a smile anymore , after experiencing a manic episode for the third time I can't see myself coming back from it, the embarrassment, the stigma, not wanting to be alone but not wanting to be around people. The reality of it all feels like a nightmare, feels like I don't know who I am, it's so hard to except, i feel so alone in my own thoughts. I'm constantly full of anxiety Ive never felt anxiety this bad before, I always feel spaced out and full of dread, in a miserable feeling all the time, the saddest part is the guilt I feel towards my family especially my mum when we talk I'm always so abrupt I hate the way I am,

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Would just love to talk to someone

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Self pressure, life is suffocating me

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Crushing guilt, and awful nostalgia over breakup

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My struggle with depression

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Would just love to talk to someone

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I feel like I'm drowning

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Self pressure, life is suffocating me

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Am I depressed? Please help.

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Crushing guilt, and awful nostalgia over breakup

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My struggle with depression

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i need support

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So alone, Silent tear

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