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Survivor of domestic violence,

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I finnaly cut the cycle of abuse from my achohloic Dad November last year. Iv had no contact since so i dont fall back into his trap like iv done many times before throuh out the years. This is the longest I Havent spoken to him but i hear lots about... View more

I finnaly cut the cycle of abuse from my achohloic Dad November last year. Iv had no contact since so i dont fall back into his trap like iv done many times before throuh out the years. This is the longest I Havent spoken to him but i hear lots about him because I live with with my gran parents who love and support him buy him all these expensive things he dosent deserve the worse part of it is they know in great detail of the abuse he conflicted onto me. All his anger and frustration was taking out on me, i dont have any surpport from them. Even cutting my dad out of my life it hasnt really stopped because living here is a constant reminder of him and im sure they talk about me to him as well. Any advice on surpport groups in perth would be good or any other advice or comments. Thank u for reading.

My future

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Hey guys first time posting so I'll try and keep this as short as possible but this is my situation, as a first time uni student I entered the year happy and excited about the opportunity of entering uni (UQ business management). However half way thr... View more

Hey guys first time posting so I'll try and keep this as short as possible but this is my situation, as a first time uni student I entered the year happy and excited about the opportunity of entering uni (UQ business management). However half way through, the course and degree I was doing was complete rubbish and for me persoanlly I wasn't learning, felt lonely and missing my mates who were either doing a trade or at other unis. I applied for a transfer to QUT and got accepted and took that opportunity with both hands. Throughout my schooling years I wasn't academically talented and found it hard but still got through with a B average and when I got to uni, the learning experience was not what I had expected and found it difficult to adjust. The month leading up to final exams, I showed signs of very bad anxiety and even had an attack at one stage. I think a combination of both loneliness, not seeking help and being miserable in what I was studying may have contributed to this but I'm not sure. Starting a fresh at a new uni in a much more interesting degree I will hopefully be more motivated in my studys but if I still find next semester hard and unmotivated, should I defer for a semester to a year and undertake an apprenticeship (always had an interest) to get my mind off studying and be able to learn new things and experience more in life other than uni. Cheers

Trying to stabilise my life, failing miserably

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Hello all, I'm finding it really difficult to express my thoughts, so I apologise in advance.. I am 22 years old and since about 15, I have found my headstate increasingly difficult to manage. I feel like I jump from personality to personality, uncon... View more

Hello all, I'm finding it really difficult to express my thoughts, so I apologise in advance.. I am 22 years old and since about 15, I have found my headstate increasingly difficult to manage. I feel like I jump from personality to personality, uncontrollably. Large stretches of time are filled with drinking, drugs, dancing, talking to random people at parks and being carefree. And, inevitably, at some point something in me clicks, and the walls of my world start collapsing inwards and I am rendered little more than a crying, selfish, self-loathing wreck. Sometimes I go completely numb, especially when faced with aggression and authority. Other times I feel like I have finally surfaced after holding my breath for a few years and can see things clearly for the first time, but then that perspective will subtly become toxic and eventually my headstate will shift again. I've made many attempts to stabilise my life - Tried going to TAFE, twice. Same with Uni. Each time started out well, I'd be getting high marks and making friends and then, snap. Everything is looming hideously before me and my thoughts become obsessive and I start doing ridiculous things like checking my lips every few minutes for signs of drooping in case I have stroke, I twitch a lot and jump at everything, I try to sleep and my hands and face feel numb and that freaks me out completely. Have nightmares where I wake up paralysed and screaming in a weird voice. My emotions just go haywire and I can't focus on anything. Today I burst out in tears in front of my boss. I've been working for him for only a month, and this is my first 'real' job. It's a nice environment, and the people I work with are all actually lovely, and up until yesterday and obviously today, I was handling it alright - nervous, sure, but staying on top of it. And then yesterday, click, the simplest, most pathetic of tasks are enormous and I become paralysed in place by a hundred different emotions and thoughts all flooding to the forefront of my mind. Thank you to all those who put up with my ramblings, I can feel the inconsistency in the way it's written..

Super confused and feeling weird :(

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Hi everyone! I'm very very new to this community and feeling very confused (as you can see by the title^) about what's happening in my head right now. I fully understand that this isn't a medical diagnosis or anything like that, but just a little hel... View more

Hi everyone! I'm very very new to this community and feeling very confused (as you can see by the title^) about what's happening in my head right now. I fully understand that this isn't a medical diagnosis or anything like that, but just a little help or even a bit of information would be greatly appreciated I'm a grade 12 student at the moment and since last year I've been feeling quite weird mentally. I often feel uneasy but I don't get overly anxious over exams or assignment as I tend to stay calm. I have noticed however that I've been crying at things very easily nowadays, I often feel hopeless and low when I think about my future even though I know that my OP isn't the end of the world and have been quite irritable. I've also noticed that I've been worrying about my friends and friendships more recently, as I've been quite frequently feeling like I'm a burden on my friends or that I'm annoying them, that they don't actually care about me as much as I care about them and basically having a fear of missing out (even though rationally I get that that isn't the case and my friends have never been anything but lovely towards me). I've also stopped doing some of the things I like to do, such as reading or making covers of songs, however this hasn't extended into all parts of my life so I don't know if this is just a by-product of having no time due to grade 12 The thing that worries me is that I want to do those things but sometimes I just feel no motivation to do so. My procrastination has also increased to an all time high and its terrible!! (although that might just be me oops). The reason why I'm asking is because I know that grade 12 is a stressful time and while I have checked up my symptoms on google, I'm not sure if this is just a thing that's happening because of the stress I'm under right now or whether it might actually be a sign of something worse. I'm not sure if I'm just being sensitive and making things up or finding an excuse?? Any help (or reassurance!) would be appreciated Thanks!!

New to BB...

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Hi there, I have just gotten the BB app. I am 18 years old and I've been having a lot of trouble lately. I recently moved from my home town to a city (800kms away) to be with my boyfriend. I have absolutely NO friends. My best friend and I had a fall... View more

Hi there, I have just gotten the BB app. I am 18 years old and I've been having a lot of trouble lately. I recently moved from my home town to a city (800kms away) to be with my boyfriend. I have absolutely NO friends. My best friend and I had a falling out once my boyfriend came into the picture because I wanted to talk to him often. But to be fair, he did live 800 kms away from me and her only lived a couple minutes drive away... I feel like I'm all alone. I feel like she has turned everyone she knows against me. I'm no more than just a human being. I'm no one. No one is ever there for me if I need it except my boyfriend and my mum if I have the courage to talk to her about my problems. I feel like I'm just a waste of space, like I'm an oxygen theif. Can anyone help? Can anyone give me some ideas to help me at least cope with this...? Thank you.

Unsure about family

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Gonna make this short and sweet. 2 years ago i moved out of home. Parents would not originally allow me so out of fear, i had cops come along as i left so i could go to a refuge. I was sexually harrassed by my step dad and i had to babysit so often i... View more

Gonna make this short and sweet. 2 years ago i moved out of home. Parents would not originally allow me so out of fear, i had cops come along as i left so i could go to a refuge. I was sexually harrassed by my step dad and i had to babysit so often it was unhealthy. When I hurt myself, my mum threatened to send me to a crazyhouse instead of trying to help. I have had Severe anxiety, depression and ptsd since i was 13. (im 19 now) I am living in a comfortable home now with my beautiful girlfriend. Since I moved out, I've been trying to get my mum to talk to me and be friends. I don't know why but she won't accept any apologies for moving out so drastically. I want things to be right again because i want to see my siblings. I practically raised them. I finally resorted to telling her that it was all me and nothing to do with her. Which was a massive lie. She said thankyou and what i said was really nice but things still arent good. I asked how i could fix it and she told me to ask my step dad. I asked him and he said there might not ever be a way to make things better. He told me to suggest a thing i could do to make it better. I don't know what to do. I am so lost. Find a way to fix the relationship that might not even fix it. In return if it works i get to see my siblings grow up. I love them to the bottom of my heart and ive seen them twice in 2 years. It is killing me. But i dont want to build a relationship on a lie. But if i dont fix it and cut them out of my life, my nan will keep nagging me, i wont see my siblings and i will be upset. Actually, either scenario i would be sad. I cant tell her the truth again because everytime i say the truth, they take internet away from my 14 year old sister so she cant see me and that hurts. They wont do family councilling. Ive been trying for 2 years and they havent budged until i said a lie.

I am 50 shades of medicated...

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Hi to whom ever chooses to read this post... I have a loooong history with mental illness. As it currently stands my medical history is somewhat extensive. I have been diagnosed with the following in recent years, depression, anxiety, ADHD and polycy... View more

Hi to whom ever chooses to read this post... I have a loooong history with mental illness. As it currently stands my medical history is somewhat extensive. I have been diagnosed with the following in recent years, depression, anxiety, ADHD and polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). I just wanted to jump on here and express my experiences in hopes others can grow as I did. From the age of 10 I was bullied at school. Nasty nasty things were done to me and I spent many a night crying myself to sleep. I never spoke about anything. I never told anyone I hurt and I just lived inside my own head. As the years progressed I became more and more marginalised and I found myself wishing it would just end. I had suicidal thoughts constantly and self harm was part of my routine. I used to go on chat lines and talk to guys to help myself feel better. I would send inappropriate photos and webcam chat. When I finished school my parents and I moved to Sydney to get away from my home town. I met, my now, ex fiancé. He was kind and sweet and I regretfully spent 4 years treating him like shit. I put on excessive weight and hated everything. In 2013 I found out I had PCOS which was part of the reason I was gaining weight and also it caused my hormones to go insane. Luckily, PCOS is easy managed by keeping your weight down. Through 2014 and into 2015 I lost 23 kilos to get myself back to a healthy weight. Later in 2015 I was diagnosed with depression and put on medication. After constant visits to my psychologist and psychiatrist my depression started to lift. I then was diagnosed with the underlying issue of ADHD. This is a very brief overview and I will be happy to answer questions. But one thing I must say... There is a HUGE stigma around being "medicated" but the truth is mental illnesses such as depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and ADHD stem from a chemical imbalance in your brain. Depression/Anxiety/Suicide is a lack of serotonin in your brain ADHD is a lack of dopamine I by NO means say take prescribed without question but I am saying... working towards managing your mental illness breaks down as 20% medication and 80% seeking help and life style changes. Thanks for reading... peace & love

Feeling like a loser in life...

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Hi! This is my first post on Beyondblue, and as the title suggests, I've been recently feeling like a real loser in life. Nothing feels like it's going right anymore, and it's been this way for some time now, but this feeling has resurfaced again thi... View more

Hi! This is my first post on Beyondblue, and as the title suggests, I've been recently feeling like a real loser in life. Nothing feels like it's going right anymore, and it's been this way for some time now, but this feeling has resurfaced again this past month or so. My mind's been running real negative, and I've been unable to not focus on the following: I've been dropped suddenly from 3-4 shifts a week to 1 shift at my casual position, my university grades are declining no matter how hard I try to raise them or appease my tutor's personal requirements (the last couple assessments my heart wasn't really in, to be honest), I have very few - almost no - friends to speak of anymore due to the fact that I can be too honest (bordering on rude - although the few who I lost to 'rudeness' I am not cut up over and are another kettle of fish all together), I've yet to learn to drive (I'm 18 years old), I'm still living at home while most of the people I knew at high school are living away at uni colleges on-campus. At work, I'm invited to hang out with the 'in-group', but I feel like I'm only invited to be ridiculed (losing with almost no points in strike bowling), and am expected to play to the 'YASS SLAYY WERK IT GURL, YAS QUEEN' gay stereotype by certain people in that work group (needless to say, I do not do this). At uni, I'm practically used by a good chunk of my 'uni friends' as someone to sit with/talk to while they wait for another one of our friends who I can guarantee they see as a more interesting person. It's been really hard on me experiencing new friendships not just fizzling out, but becoming a bit of a one-way transaction. I just want to feel like I'm succeeding in my academic and all-round endeavors in life, like I'm interested in the things I used to be interested in (like my degree, art, etc), and like I'm valued in the workplace and in the relationships that I establish with others. I'm not one to usually give a flying fig about what I'm doing in relation to others either (like not actually accumulating any driving hours at all as of yet, or still living at home), but recently these things have been really playing on my mind something terrible. I really just want to be 'reborn' and be living a really enjoyable life once again, with friends and regular work etc (don't we all), and I'm at a real loss on how to find it within myself to get out and restore the balance. Thank you for kindly taking your time to read this post

Hello..

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My brain is going at 100 miles an hour and I'm overthinking every little thing. I've liked this girl for a while and she doesn't like me back. As stupid as it sounds it's making me feel horrible, I can't sleep, I'm not eating properly, I'm feeling ho... View more

My brain is going at 100 miles an hour and I'm overthinking every little thing. I've liked this girl for a while and she doesn't like me back. As stupid as it sounds it's making me feel horrible, I can't sleep, I'm not eating properly, I'm feeling hopeless and feeling like I'll never get over this. It feels like I've hit rock bottom and that there is no way up from here unless this works out. I don't know what to do. I feel sick.

High School Labeling and Leadership

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Hello, I'm 24 years old and my cousin is 15 and currently going through the fitting in and labeling stage of high school. She had me remembering my high school problems and I can remember that there was a lot of labeling even by teachers. You knew ex... View more

Hello, I'm 24 years old and my cousin is 15 and currently going through the fitting in and labeling stage of high school. She had me remembering my high school problems and I can remember that there was a lot of labeling even by teachers. You knew exactly which students would make the leadership team based purely on popularity. Our school captain also got given the same role in primary school as well as our male school captain. I knew of other girls who would have done a wonderful job if they were given the chance regardless of popularity. Our school captain wouldn't have a bar of us and she would skip classes to go smoke weed across the road..........this was suppose to be our role model. I knew I wasn't good enough to be a leader and none of my group of friends would have even bothered to nominate each other. I remember nominating a girl who was very caring, nice, academically strong and honest, yet she was a bit shy. If she had of been given a chance her confidence would have been lifted. Why is it that we all knew who would be given leadership roles? Why is it always the same students? Why is that the majority of us hated going to assemblies to pick captain and vice captains? You know your not cool enough to be a part of it yet you're forced to sit and watch the obvious be handed what they already got handed in primary school. Now I look back and think about how none of it really mattered.......I became a teacher and so did three of my other friends from high school and I couldn't be happier with life. I like to think I'm considerate and inclusive of all our school kiddies and we actually change leadership roles each term to give more students a chance to feel special. It's a shame high school can be cruel......trying to reassure my hormonal cousin though is as pointless as my mother trying to assure me back in the day.

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Super confused and feeling weird :(

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