I am really sorry to bother you I know people need this more than I do
but I was wondering if I could have some help please. I’m so tired. I
have bipolar, PTSD, chronic adjustment disorder, obsessive compulsive
disorder, generalised anxiety, social a...
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I am really sorry to bother you I know people need this more than I do
but I was wondering if I could have some help please. I’m so tired. I
have bipolar, PTSD, chronic adjustment disorder, obsessive compulsive
disorder, generalised anxiety, social anxiety, mild Tourette’s, recent
trauma & autism. I find studying relaxing & I like nothing better than
being on my own. I work full time & have my own routines and rituals
that help me feel better. I was raised by an extremely abusive mother
(physically & emotionally) as well as a dad I adored. My grandmother and
I were really close and my mother hated this so I was belted after each
visit for one reason or another. She was very open with how much she
didn’t like me & that I was odd. She would repeat phrases telling me
people didn’t like me. . By the time I was 12 I had anorexia. I
completed 2 university degrees & was married at 25. Had my beautiful son
at 26. This is when the abuse started & I did everything I could to make
sure I protected my son from it. My life was threatened repeatedly & he
had a knife stuck in a post just outside the back door to remind me of
what would happen if I disobeyed him. He finally left me for someone
else so I was able to escape the marriage. There was then 9 years in
court to try and stop my son going. He had already told me he didn’t
want our son as he wasn’t a girl but continued with court. My son hated
his father because of the abuse. 6 years after this marriage ended I met
someone else who was the physical opposite of my 1st husband. He was
also an abusive alcoholic who had 3 teenage children who would steal
from me, take drugs and trash the house. . These behaviours ignored by
their father and left for me to deal with - even looking for ice addict
when they ran away (many times). I financially not only lost everything
but was over $60000 in debt when he left me for someone else. growing up
we saw mum threaten dad with a knife on 2 occasions. She would threaten
to kill us many times. Through my marriage my mother refused to speak to
me because I had disobeyed her & got married. Last year my dad died. I
moved in with her to help her. My companion dog was run over and killed
in her yard. I have a new dog, am terrified of losing her.. My nephew
lives here. He lies, won’t help and won’t pay board. Tonight I had a
massive fight with mum because of something she said but she denies it,
instead rang my sister and cried to my sister so now I am dirt. I don’t
know what to do.