I don't know what to do. I suffered pretty badly from severe depression
and anxiety when i was a teenager (12-18, literally the whole time I was
a teenager). I'm 21 now, and I honestly thought I was better. But
lately, I don't know, I've been really ...
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I don't know what to do. I suffered pretty badly from severe depression
and anxiety when i was a teenager (12-18, literally the whole time I was
a teenager). I'm 21 now, and I honestly thought I was better. But
lately, I don't know, I've been really struggling, and It's honestly
scaring the crap out of me. I had to quit my job because a guy there was
being an arse to me, and it got to the point where I just couldn't go in
there. I was standing in the car park having a full on panic attack
because his car was there, and I literally just turned and ran away. I
spent the rest of that day crying in bed, I just felt so pathetic. Like,
if i was any regular kind of person, I'd be able to deal with it or
something. I don't know. It's just that I haven't felt like this in
years. I didn't realize it was still a risk. I don't want to hurt
myself, I was so proud of myself for stopping that, but I'm having those
urges again, and it's really scaring me, and I don't know how strong my
willpower to not do it is, and I made an appointment to see my
psychologist, but she's away til the 21st, and that just seems like so
far away. I don't feel like I can talk to my family about how I'm
feeling (I still live at home), I just feel like I've put them through
so much already, and it would be so unfair especially on my mum to make
her have to start worrying about me like that again. I'm just really
scared, and worried, and I feel so alone, and useless and pathetic. I'm
home alone all day today, and I'm really worried about how I'm going to
try to distract myself from feeling like I want to hurt myself.
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