Depression

New here. Not sure, but I think I need help.

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Hello everyone. i hope someone can help or advise me. Lately I get up I feel fine, then about 2hrs or so later I feel miserable like I can't be bothered to do anything, it all seems too much of an effort. At night I'm lucky to get 3hrs sleep, I can't... View more

Hello everyone. i hope someone can help or advise me. Lately I get up I feel fine, then about 2hrs or so later I feel miserable like I can't be bothered to do anything, it all seems too much of an effort. At night I'm lucky to get 3hrs sleep, I can't sleep, yet during the day a fall asleep on the lounge. Sometimes a think what's the use of me being here, I want to escape, leave everything behind me, I used to go out with my friends but now I make up excuses not to go. i don't know if there is something not right or what.

Not doing well

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I am struggling so much today not sure how the day will pan out. On my way to work running late as did not want to get out of bed. Head in a spin and stress levels really high. Sock of feeling so sad and looking at happy people on the train interacti... View more

I am struggling so much today not sure how the day will pan out. On my way to work running late as did not want to get out of bed. Head in a spin and stress levels really high. Sock of feeling so sad and looking at happy people on the train interacting and laughing. So so sad.

What the hell is wrong with me?

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This is my first ever post so here goes. I'm married with kids but I feel so alone. Ever since I was a teenager I've never felt good enough. I was given a hard time in high school and never felt like anyone really wanted me around. Nothing's changed.... View more

This is my first ever post so here goes. I'm married with kids but I feel so alone. Ever since I was a teenager I've never felt good enough. I was given a hard time in high school and never felt like anyone really wanted me around. Nothing's changed. I have a couple of friends but no one really close and I've always felt on the outside, like if I wasn't around they wouldn't miss me anyway. i used to love my work but not anymore. A new employee started a year ago and she's just like all those high school bullies, sneaky and conniving and bitchy. She has talked me down to so many other employees that several have turned against me, it's like none of them can see what she is doing. High school all over again. the last few days all I've done is put up a fake face when I'm around anyone and the second I'm alone I just cry. I wish I could just pack up and leave it all behind but I adore my children, they are the only shining light in my life. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just pull myself together? Why don't I ever feel like I'm enough? I feel so alone

The struggle

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Hi I have depression and anxiety and last night I went out and had a few drinks which turned into about seven and I ended up gambling away some money as well, woke up today feeling quite down about it I have been on medication for a few years now for... View more

Hi I have depression and anxiety and last night I went out and had a few drinks which turned into about seven and I ended up gambling away some money as well, woke up today feeling quite down about it I have been on medication for a few years now for depression and everything has just felt like a struggle I just recently left a job which I disliked and have started a job at a new company but so far I have been failing to pick things up like I use to and already received a written warning for a minor mistake, it just feels like I am slipping and I am turning to the wrong things in order to elevate my problems any advice would be great

BPD

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ive just been diagnosed with BPD. its shocked me becasue i wouldnt have thought i have a personality disorder. ive been told that DBT is the best form of therapy but dont really know much else, and i dont really know what to do from here. ive been pu... View more

ive just been diagnosed with BPD. its shocked me becasue i wouldnt have thought i have a personality disorder. ive been told that DBT is the best form of therapy but dont really know much else, and i dont really know what to do from here. ive been put on a waiting list to DBT group therapy but thats a long list minimum 4 months until then so not really sure how to proceed from here can anyone share any experiences about where to from here, DBT experiences or anything at all

Feeling low

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Hi, I've had depression for a few years now, but only sought help at the start of the year. I've been on medication for 5 months now and there was a period where I was feeling do much better. Although in the last couple of weeks I feel like the meds ... View more

Hi, I've had depression for a few years now, but only sought help at the start of the year. I've been on medication for 5 months now and there was a period where I was feeling do much better. Although in the last couple of weeks I feel like the meds have just stopped working. I've never been so sad in my life. I'm constantly excusing myself at work and going to the bathroom to cry. I don't want to kill myself, but I want to just hit pause on my life. I've thought about packing up my stuff and leaving for awhile. I'm struggling at work and constantly feel like I'm just waiting to get hone and lie in bed and cry. I've had enough of this. I want to be happy so bad. Anyone experience the same after taking medication? Any advice?

What's left to try? Treatment resistant dysthymia

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I grew up thinking that my highly muted capacity for emotional response was just a personality trait. It took a double depresion episode in my 20s to realise otherwise. Sought treatment then, nothing worked, so I just tried to get on with things. Hit... View more

I grew up thinking that my highly muted capacity for emotional response was just a personality trait. It took a double depresion episode in my 20s to realise otherwise. Sought treatment then, nothing worked, so I just tried to get on with things. Hit my mid 30s, and my ahedonia became so pronounced I stopprd having feelings of reward or achievement often, or lastingly. Over the past 3 years, I've engaged a mental health team, but nothing we've tried's worked. Aside from an occasional catostrophising and the odd moment of anxiety, there's not a lot for CBT to target. Talk therapy worked through some other issues hasn't provided any symptom relief. On the psychiatry side, if you can name a drug, I've been on it. And if I've been on it, it has either had no effect or an abnormal one. Exercise - also a bust. Joined a gym & a team sport, went to both regularly for a bit over a year.got into the best shape I've been in a decade & only felt worse because now I was depressed *and* phyically exhausted, without ever apparent benefit of exercise endorphins. Joined a community organisation for regular socialisation and do-good spirit; left bevause I'm one of nature's introverts and people are exhausting. I don't even get a lasting sense of good feelings from being with friends What's left? What else should I try? I'm on the waiting list for tcm therapy but there don't seem to be any other treatment trials or research programs in WA. Even if I can't be fixed, knowing more aboit why I am the way I am would make things more bearable.

Depression is so Exhausting

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Hi All, Have had depression for around ten years,It is envioromental depression if there is such a thing I don't think it is a chemical imbalance as there is no depression in the family that I know of altough my mother has high Anxiety and will never... View more

Hi All, Have had depression for around ten years,It is envioromental depression if there is such a thing I don't think it is a chemical imbalance as there is no depression in the family that I know of altough my mother has high Anxiety and will never admit it ,she isn't good at admitting things I have to say, particularly the mental abuse we suffered and even at 53 still getting it today altough my sisters get far more now than I do as I don't see her much now, and avoid her like the plague but still get panic attack when I see it's her on the phone ,so damage done too deep to just forget.Married a woman who is pretty much the same only with far more venom and we barely speak and I have to end this marriage and soon or it will take me this time. I just have'nt the strength for the torrid battle it will be and she will use our son as a weapon against me that I can't avoid.It kills me he is 17 and is autisic and has the worst OCD that 3 doctors and 5 psycologists have ever seen (their words). he washes his hands 50 times a day is paranoid about germs and fumes so will not go out of the house without a major battle ,and has also a phobia about flies ,and we live in sydney so summer is an absolute joy as you can imagine.I am not on any meds as I was for 7 years and will not go down that road again ,have seen many psycologists with varying degree's of assistance ranging from little to none.One has been very helpful and very well known so when I watch tv I see her often I aso do her work I am a tradie so it is a little familiar and Fills me with shame when I think about how she must feel about me ,even thogh I know it isn't the case and I know it's just the ruminating thought patterns creating a false reality it still hurts me.I have hit a place where I haven't been before in as much as I don't want to go out and I don't want to exersize which I normally do crossfit 4 times a week and yoga twice a week I have just hit a wall and feel paralized ,

Things I have lost part I - friends

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I had a whole heap of friends that I kept in touch with, organised things with.I would be a recluse every now and then, but we would always be out and about. Travelling to Tassie, travelling to Canada, kayaking/canoeing Kangaroo Point river, driving ... View more

I had a whole heap of friends that I kept in touch with, organised things with.I would be a recluse every now and then, but we would always be out and about. Travelling to Tassie, travelling to Canada, kayaking/canoeing Kangaroo Point river, driving to Darwin for wedding, having dinners etc. Then things started to happen. My depression smacked me hard and I was down for the count for some time. My close friends were great, and even went to the community counsellor at the hospital to learn about depression, signs, what it means etc. This buoyed me up – how lovely. But I haven't really got better. I began to fall out of the loop. People did not include me in the group invites or to the Christmas party. Friends did not tell me that my other ‘friends’ were in a bad places (like 1 with stage III breast cancer; another whose parents died), so I just drifted backwards more and more. This made me terribly sad – and made me feel very selfish as I wasn’t there to support them,which made me more distant as I didn’t know what to say (I know this is very self, self, self, but that is where I am at right now).

Sad all the time? Dysthymia

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It's difficult to describe but if you see and feel sadness in most things in life you could have dysthymia. Constant, uncontrollable crying, thinking often about sad topics. A proper diagnosis is needed. This illness generally develops prior to adult... View more

It's difficult to describe but if you see and feel sadness in most things in life you could have dysthymia. Constant, uncontrollable crying, thinking often about sad topics. A proper diagnosis is needed. This illness generally develops prior to adulthood and can be described as a constant low mood depression. You can google "dysthymia mood disorder" to receive a full description. The disorder makes one feel alone, desperate and unusual. I have a friend I went to school with, he never cried in 35 years I knew him until his father died. He was uncontrollable that funeral day. The next day we chatted. I mentioned that his state the day before was how I felt every second day. He got some idea of the magnitude. Soon after I got the diagnosis Bipolar2, depression, anxiety and...dysthymia. my psychiatrist discovered that a near drowning of my brother when I was 12yo was the spark, the shock that set it off. I didnt talk for 3 months after that incident and was highly emotional ever since until 2009 when he prescribed medication. Since then my life has turned around in terms of sadness. If you believe your level of sadness is high, constant and you feel desperate, even suicidal, you might have dysthymia. It effects more women than men, can come about if you have a parent with a mental illness or if you suffered trauma at a young age. Seek help. The difference to your life will be much more positive. Tony WK

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