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Alcohol and depression

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I'm 21 and have been drinking on usually a weekly basis since I was 18. I never used to have a problem with going out, I'd have a few drinks dance with my friends come home and wake up the best morning feeling fine. since I got diagnosed with depress... View more

I'm 21 and have been drinking on usually a weekly basis since I was 18. I never used to have a problem with going out, I'd have a few drinks dance with my friends come home and wake up the best morning feeling fine. since I got diagnosed with depression when I moved to university a few years ago and put on medication I feel I can no longer drink responsibly at all. I almost always end up vomiting sometimes for up to two days later. I suffer black outs and sometimes make extremely poor decisions which don't help with my depression at all. its got to the point where I've spent all day in bed today and I think I have to give up alcohol. Even though I only drink once a week now I always drink too much and I hate myself for it afterwards. im wondering if anyone else is or has suffered the same? and any advice in giving up alcohol? At university That's pretty much what everyone does all the time.

Please help, I'm 14.

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I have been dealing with extreme anxiety for a really long time now, no other chatlines are open and i just need to talk to someone. This time 5 years ago was the last time I saw my dad. He gave up on me, do you know how it feels for your own dad not... View more

I have been dealing with extreme anxiety for a really long time now, no other chatlines are open and i just need to talk to someone. This time 5 years ago was the last time I saw my dad. He gave up on me, do you know how it feels for your own dad not to love you enough to even give you a phone call. I walk around the shops and see dad's taking their children out for lunch, buying them pointless things, doing whatever makes there child happy.....When i was 11 i made the decision i never wanted to see my dad again (after not seeing him for over 2 years) and i still stick by this decision. It honestly just sucks and i have found for the past week its really getting to me, I'm not sure if its because its around this time 5 years ago i last saw him or because im really starting to understand what all this means... I've always had a bit of trouble making friends, In year 6 i was sent threatening notes and my only 'friends' were my bullies.In year 7 i had no friends and spent every day of lunch in the library. I moved schools at the start of year 8. It was hard to even find people to hang out with because they already have their friendship group...i still feel a bit like this. I have three groups im friends with at school. One is with two other girls (emily jess), they are really close so i often feel left out and they kinda make fun of me for going to church. I will try to organize things with them and they always bail and im always the one to organize things. The other group is with about 5 girls. The main girl Charlee is really weird with me. She will go 3 weeks ignoring me. Making small comments to make me sound stupid. I think she might be jealous coz she thinks that the guy she likes likes me.But then all of a sudden she will treat me like im her best friends and invite me over and everything....another girl HATES ME. like seriously has a problem with me, she would throw a ball at my face in sport, laugh and say she did it on purpose. She says things about me that not true. The last group is my group im closest with, ronan (this is the guy charlee thinks likes me) ben and josh. They are really really nice and i think they consider me good friends of theres too. But they are guys and i know they want their time to be with just guys, so they will all have a movie marathon together or something which is fine....but then emily and jess will be doing something together, charlee and the other girls will be doing something together... its just really hard to feel like no one wants you around...not even your own dad. this has been giving me heaps of anxiety (i use to take tablets but they made me dizzy) and ive been cryin heaps at night time..please help

I dont know

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I dont know how to start this, im a 20 year old guy, I have 3 sisters and a mother, my dad was absuive to us as kids and we dont get along but i cant explain how badly i want s father figure, have a history with drugs as the only way I could feel nor... View more

I dont know how to start this, im a 20 year old guy, I have 3 sisters and a mother, my dad was absuive to us as kids and we dont get along but i cant explain how badly i want s father figure, have a history with drugs as the only way I could feel normal was to be as stoned or cooked as the person next to me. I might have anxiety or depression but i'll keep denying it because I dont want it to be true, I cant hold a conversation with anyone but my sisters because I seriously have no idea what to say to people, im always nervous, I might be gay or bi or what ever but I deny that to. I like the idea of this website because its kind of anonymous, I feel like I cant talk to my friends because i dont want them to know what im really like in case they wont like who I 'really' am, constantly paranoid about everything, I want to say I want someone to talk to but it wont go further than 5 texts before I think for an hour about how to reply and just backspace it anyway, writing this feels pointless when there are so many people worse off than me, nothing makes me laugh anymore and I cant remember the last time I really smiled, id go to a therapist but im from a poor family and my job pays me not much because im to scared to say anything about it. I just want someone whos felt like this to tell me that it wont last forever because I cant do this much longer, thanks.

is survival possible?

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Is survival possible? I ask myself this over and over again lately. Its weird I never thought this would be me, this person. I had all these ideas as a kid of what I wanted when I was older and how things would go. I was brought up loved, supported, ... View more

Is survival possible? I ask myself this over and over again lately. Its weird I never thought this would be me, this person. I had all these ideas as a kid of what I wanted when I was older and how things would go. I was brought up loved, supported, cared for, I have no right to be unhappy so many people in this world are so much worse off than me. Yet here I am at 24, a world away from the person I wanted to be and the person I feel I should be....24, single, unemployed, lonely, misserable , failing uni student..... 8 years ago I was officially diagnosed with anxiety, lots of drs, lots of medications, lots of side effects, lots of therapists and I was making progress untill I got assualted out of nowhere. A person walked up to me when I was out with a friend, they didnt say a thing, I didnt even see them comming, just grabbed me from behind and beat the hell out of me. Scared me so so much. Every person became a risk & to say it made my anxiety worse is an understatement. A month or so later I got diagnosed with a health condition which caused me to gain alot of weight & caused several other problems, making me hate myself, my body & basicly the universe...somewhere through it all depression landed itself at my door and I found myself absolutely astonished that psycological pain could actually physically make my heart ache.my downward spiral was then added to by my aunty being diagnosed with terminal cancer and finally her passing a few months ago. I miss her every single day and cry myself to sleep often. The only thing I want is to have her back, yet I know I cant....my heart is broken added ontop of a life that was already broken. The pain of such a lose ontop of already having servere depression resulted in me starting to hurt myself (another something I never ever thought would be part of my story).....I have a psychiatrist, I have a psychologist, I take medication for my anxiety, my depression and to help me sleep......I feel so alone though, the pain never ends, it feels unbearable and that scares me because it just hurts so much.... Is survival possible? And if it is how? Because the pain and suffering that comes with depression and loss seem to be a never ending nightmare of my exsistence that I dont know how to get through

Unable to sleep

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Hi There my fellow friends, I am up posting at 11.40pm as i'm unable to sleep/get to sleep. I feel like i just have so much yet so little going on around and around in my head. I've notice these days my Anxiety is up a little and i'm just feeling uns... View more

Hi There my fellow friends, I am up posting at 11.40pm as i'm unable to sleep/get to sleep. I feel like i just have so much yet so little going on around and around in my head. I've notice these days my Anxiety is up a little and i'm just feeling unsure about how i'm really feeling. I know alot of this that goes on day to day, and well at lest pretty much most of the day, is about my ex and just whats happened in my life in the last six months. I feel like i'm at the stage of trying to forget all that has happened/is happening between us and my feelings, trying to be strong inside and starting to see that his not the other half anymore that i'm not part of knowing what he does or who his talking to and that i'm trying to pick up my pieces and learn how to do things on my own again, and to try and not worry about him so much, why? i have no clue why i do still. it's not that i'm wanting to move on or anything I know it's because i have to. to my ex he think that in the last couple of days that there has been something up with me, like i seem more distant like i'v found someone else, like iv move on. i did say to hi m that I haven't found anybody and moving on like that no i haven't. since he has said and asked all of this, its been playing on my mind as to why he thinks i'm distant i'm understanding what his really saying because well were not together anyway so how more distant can you get?. at times i feel like i could say and ask him the same thing theses days. id be lying if i said that everyday I'm not trying to avoid and think about everything that has happened and everything after the brake up and just having him still in my head. I do get out when i can to do things but it's only for a little while that its all back in my head. I know he doesn't have feelings but I o feel like his not opened with me about how how he really feels. he says its hard on him as well and that i'm not the only person, but...seriously he seems alot more down to earth and better than me. i don't see him going through hurt with all this like me. I know he works alot an catches up with people ad yes all ways on his phone talking to others. Ii my self just don't know how to talk to him or say anything without it becoming a argument or it all gets put on me or him getting angry and verbally abusive or insulating/put downs or walking out, just on what i say about how I feel. I just i'm trying to work out how i'm feeling how i'm ment to be feeling and is it all normal? or am i over thinking too much? do I/ we need to know have a serious talk about whats going on and whats really happening..... I don't know... Thanks heaps for those being super supportive and replying and just being there to talk to. I hope I haven't /didn't bore anyone from this ridiculously huge essay. L.Becx P.s Apologies again for such a Huge Essay...

Im ashamed of my mental illnesss

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I was officially diagnosed with depression three years ago, but doctors believed i suffered from it from my early teenage years. I was diagnosed with anxiety a few months ago. I have always been really careful with who i tell about my mental illness.... View more

I was officially diagnosed with depression three years ago, but doctors believed i suffered from it from my early teenage years. I was diagnosed with anxiety a few months ago. I have always been really careful with who i tell about my mental illness. So only my family and very close friends know about it. But i have recently started to realise that many of my friends dont know how to handle my illness or act around me and treat me differently and therefore have begun to exile me. I can feel myself shutting down from society. And now becoming ashamed and embarrassed of my mental illness due to the lack of support. Im regretting ever telling anyone at all.

No idea what's wrong with me.

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Hello all, I'm Jason, and I really don't know what's wrong with me. Some days, I can be on top of the world feeling great. Other times - like right now - I can feel like I'm worthless and not worth a dime. I've seen doctors and psychologists yet none... View more

Hello all, I'm Jason, and I really don't know what's wrong with me. Some days, I can be on top of the world feeling great. Other times - like right now - I can feel like I'm worthless and not worth a dime. I've seen doctors and psychologists yet none seem to think I'm bi-polar, or even depressive yet I can't help but think otherwise. I don't understand myself and why I'm upset most of the time - I've had issues in the past with my weight and it's still a big issue with my confidence, also I'm balding terribly for someone who's only 23 and that kills me inside. I have concerns about my memory and intelligence as well; I often struggle with the basics in life and nothing makes me feel worse than that. Due to my anxiety it's impossible to keep a job as the last one I had it was volunteer work and I basically had a break down with the stress - not exactly a hireable kinda guy. I'm sorry if this is too long, I needed the rant and I hope you understand. thanks.

Don't know what to do with myself

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I met a guy about a year and a half ago and I have fallen completely in love with him, so much stuff has happened between us, we lost our trust with each other . He was always the one that would stuff up and I always forgave him and it was like one d... View more

I met a guy about a year and a half ago and I have fallen completely in love with him, so much stuff has happened between us, we lost our trust with each other . He was always the one that would stuff up and I always forgave him and it was like one day I had just had enough and then I did stuff that I'm Not proud of and it broke his trust with me. I have always been the nicest person I never hurt anyone and then this boy comes in my life and completely changes everything about me, I always wanted to be with him so I blew off my friends for him so now I feel like I have no one. I made this boy my everything and now his broken up with me I feel like I have nothing, I feel like I can't be happy without him, I love him so much and I'm blaming everything on myself now that we aren't together anymore. I feel lost like I don't know who I am anymore, I try and go out and forget about him but I just can't seem to have fun or be happy without him , I feel like I'm gonna be like this forever. I'm the happiest when I'm with him and now that I'm not anymore I'm so down. My friends are sick of me complaining all the time and sick of me going back and forth with him. I just don't know what to do with myself I feel lost and so sad all the time, all I want is to be happy again but I feel like I never will

Hello

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Hi. I'm new to this. I am 19 and have social anxiety. I have always been extremely shy and easily panicked, it got worse as i got older. It wasn't until a couple of years ago that i told mum and started seeing someone about it which was when they tol... View more

Hi. I'm new to this. I am 19 and have social anxiety. I have always been extremely shy and easily panicked, it got worse as i got older. It wasn't until a couple of years ago that i told mum and started seeing someone about it which was when they told me i had extreme social phobia which was causing depression and insomnia. Seeing someone has helped a little. Although it's taken me a year to work up the courage to join and post something, and taken me almost two hours to finally get the wording almost right without sending myself into a panic. The thought of posting this is making my leg shake, heart race, and body tempurater rise. Anxiety blows.I'm wondering about how other people deal with anxiety, depression or insomnia, etc.

Beyond broken

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Hi everyone, Well I'm here because I need to share my story as I feel its the only way for me to find out who I am now. Ok so here goes.... I am a 23 year old woman and I am at a extreme low point in my life. I have been through alot in my 23 years a... View more

Hi everyone, Well I'm here because I need to share my story as I feel its the only way for me to find out who I am now. Ok so here goes.... I am a 23 year old woman and I am at a extreme low point in my life. I have been through alot in my 23 years and i am a strong girl however now i am completely broken. I got into a relationship when i was 21 with a guy i totally fell in love with, the relationship has now ended and i am totally traumatised by it due to the fact it was an EMOTIONAL HELL! I changed and sacrificed mylife for this person and got nothing back. I am now in such a low place that my days are filled with sleeping, waking up, sitting in bed and doing nothing. I am a psychology graduate and i know what depression is and what it does but it does not make it easier, if anything it makes it worse because i am so ashamed that i have let myself get to this point. I have been to my doctors, i am going to speak to someone and i am on medication, i have an amazing family the only problem right now is myself. I cant seem to pull myself up . It is as if my body has just said no this is enough i am not doing this any more i have been through to much. I used to be a fun loving happy girl and now i am a fake happy girl totally destroyed. Anyway....that is the basics about me....there is alot more i can tell you but i don't want to bombard you all. Basically i am fed up of this and just need to talk to people who i can relate to. I hope you guys can help and i hope i can return that.

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