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I'm worried my trauma is affecting my life

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I'm in Year 12, moved to Australia just a while ago, and while relived, it's still hard for me. I keep remembering old memories, obsessing over them and struggling to move on. I'm always pulled back to my deep depression afterwards, it makes me feel ... View more

I'm in Year 12, moved to Australia just a while ago, and while relived, it's still hard for me. I keep remembering old memories, obsessing over them and struggling to move on. I'm always pulled back to my deep depression afterwards, it makes me feel like I'll never be able to move on. It was only 3 months, but it changed me completely, and no one here understands. Even if I find people that I slightly relate to, maybe they also like the same hobbies, or I find someone queer, maybe someone from my country, but it's not enough. I feel so isolated and lonely, I lost the reason I stayed alive after leaving that place,my friends. I'm scared, I'm losing my connection to the only people who were in that hospital with me, the only people that know me and can make me feel better. I keep thinking, if some are dead or back in the hospital. There were two that I kept reaching out to but rejected me, saying they are going through a difficult time. What happened to them? Are they still suicidal? Should I worry? And what about the others? My only relief comes from a friend who said she's studying in uni to be a psychiatrist. We were in the same room together, and I always worried about her. She went through much more than any other human should, but it's still not the same. I can't meet her, I can't meet anyone. They are so far away. Even if I do, there are fears that a new war will start soon and I might need to cancel my plans. I'm never going back to that horrible country, I refuse to live there, I hate everything about it, but it's still my home, and all my friends are there. What will happen to them? Most of them are struggling. All the friends I went to school with have quit, all for different reasons, but mostly because the school got so much worse after I left. I feel responsible, as someone who always protected them and tried to support them. I abandoned them. In Australia, I've focused so much on myself, I tried to avoid anything uncomfortable, like the friends I left behind. I was worried the truth would be too painful. I enjoy our relationships, but they make me feel comfortable enough, and so I start talking again, about that horrible hospital and that horrible country full of all my worst and best memories. Thinking about my loved ones still there, I know it's hard for them. But I can't support them. I have to protect myself, but I know I can't avoid it, how I left them, how I didn't take care of them when they needed my help. I'm a selfish, bad friend.

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I need help, but I can't be bothered to find it. Please motivate me!

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I would not say that I am stubborn, but it really depends on the day. Usually, I can adapt to what other people want with minimal complaints. Last week, a friend of mine lost their father. They did not have a very close relationship with him, but I c... View more

I would not say that I am stubborn, but it really depends on the day. Usually, I can adapt to what other people want with minimal complaints. Last week, a friend of mine lost their father. They did not have a very close relationship with him, but I can tell that it still affected them greatly. I am very worried for them, but I know there is not much I can do about it other than be supportive and give them space when they need it. I am really stressed out about their situation as well as studying. I am also pretty upset because we are discussing refugees and asylum seekers in my classes and there was a speaker who shared their story about how they found refuge where I live. I am a rather empathetic person, so I have been crying about it all day. Our head of year always urges us to come to her if we need help, but I do not like talking about my problems in person because all I do is cry. The same is with my parents. I am very sensitive, so sometimes I can't tell if I'm really struggling or just being dramatic. Depending on the day, I believe one or the other. I want to find help (either from my head of year or a professional) but I simply do not have the time or the confidence to do it. I can not bring myself to talk to my school's counsellor. I do not want to talk to my friends about it because we are currently helping our friend who is struggling much more than me, and I would hate to make this situation about myself. Is this me being unmotivated from stress? Do I have social anxiety? Do I have another type of mental disorder? Did I just have a bad day today? I hope that somebody has had the same experience as me. Please motivate me to see a professional — and AI will never be an option for me. That's a robot. Thank you for reading, and please help!

how do i get through year 12 when i feel this way??

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so recently i started year 12, and by recently i mean term 1 has yet to finish. originally i was really looking forward to finishing school and dont get me wrong i still am- but now i wish i had just dropped out like i had considered during year 11.b... View more

so recently i started year 12, and by recently i mean term 1 has yet to finish. originally i was really looking forward to finishing school and dont get me wrong i still am- but now i wish i had just dropped out like i had considered during year 11.before i explain i want to note that ive always suspected ive had some kind of mental health issues. i did used to have depression (edit: i cant remember if it was diagnosed or not because i was so young) and i also suffer from tourettes syndrome which happens to get worse if im really stressed so those things could maybe interfere with or sort of explain why im feeling this way but im not 100% sure.now the context. since i started year 12 ive noticed a huge difference in myself not physically but mentally. mornings have gotten ridiculously difficult for me and not in the normal sense, ive lost almost all motivation, i struggle to do my homework, ive become more forgetful and i feel unhealthily tired during the days. on top of all this im so mentally exhausted and feel at a loss because now that ive started year 12 its like i might as well get it over and done with- yet at the same time every day feels worse and more tiring. my parents often ask me if im okay and if i just had a bad day, but its more than just a bad day for me. ive started seeing a phycologist for reasons other than this but it feels like no matter what i do this feeling never goes away. when im in class i just want to cry the whole time and slump over and sleep. i hate it. i dont like feeling the way i do right now. the entirety of highschool especially from year 9 to now has been mentally exhausting but this term has been on another level. so now my main question is how on earth do i get through my final year when i feel so horrible?? edit: my parents are so great to me as well so im not shy or scared to open up to them, matter of fact i do. but theres only so much they can do to help me.

Struggling with OCD

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I recently spent the night with my partner, we were close to being intimate, using protection, but did not end up going through with it. Since that night, I have not had my period, which would not be off its schedule, and have experienced all the reg... View more

I recently spent the night with my partner, we were close to being intimate, using protection, but did not end up going through with it. Since that night, I have not had my period, which would not be off its schedule, and have experienced all the regular symptoms i get in the days before my period, but due to the lack of my period itself, its caused my obsessive and compulsive thoughts to spiral. Every rational thought I I have knows that I'm not pregnant but the lack of 100% confirmation has led to multiple panic attacks a day. I have repeated rituals in trying to "prove my thoughts wrong" so often in a day that I can't think about anything else and my constant anxious-ness is making me feel very ill.

Loneliness While Studying Online

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Hello,Over the past year, I have been feeling like my friends are starting to drift and hang out with other people. They still hang out with each other, roughly once a fortnight, but there is no talking between. I have no other friends, so I just spe... View more

Hello,Over the past year, I have been feeling like my friends are starting to drift and hang out with other people. They still hang out with each other, roughly once a fortnight, but there is no talking between. I have no other friends, so I just spend my time studying university (Online). The thing about the fortnightly catch ups is that I don't enjoy the setting or the activities. I actually find myself bored. Not only that, but I struggle to catch up with them outside of that, partly because of major anxiety, partly that everyone is always busy and partly because I'm finding I don't enjoy the catch ups anymore. I feel like I'm growing away. I wish it was still like when we were in school. I miss that. I don't know how or where to make more friends, and I just feel pretty stuck. I don't know what to do. - Lunar Rose

hello and im not sure

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hello idrk how to begin i just turned 15 and i feel kind of stuck in life, i believe i have depression or anxiety but when i asked my mum to see a medical professional she simply recommend my school counsellor. i feel constantly tired and was recentl... View more

hello idrk how to begin i just turned 15 and i feel kind of stuck in life, i believe i have depression or anxiety but when i asked my mum to see a medical professional she simply recommend my school counsellor. i feel constantly tired and was recently diagnosed with iron deficiency. i feel stressed about upcoming exams and about what i am going to do in senior school - im also feeling left out at school as everyone has their bestfriends and friend groups and i just kinda .. float. my birthday was a couple of week ago and no one at school remembered. i then had a big emotional breakdown i believe its cause i had been pushing down my emotions for quite some time. i lashed out at my family today and feel extremely guilty and i cant seem to control my emotions - ive also noticed i hit my head or my thighs when im overwelmed and ik its not good but i cant stop doing it. i often feel numb and find myself zoning out and either thinking negatively about myself or just thinking how stuck i feel in life. school is a not good and im struggling to get out of bed in the morning - im deliberating asking to be homeschooled cause school just feels like too much. i feel like im trapped in a constant cycle and often question if this is what my life is meant for. i have no motivation to do anything yet i feel guilty and stupid when i do nothing - i find myself short on time due to my bad timekeeping skills and yet ive signed up for many activites this year - i have something on everyday after school and on the weekends (i told my parents i wish to try new things but i think its cause i dont wanna sit and process my emotions) im also self-conscious about my body and my face but i feel like i cant or shouldnt speak about it cause ik everyone goes through it when they are my age. i took beyond blues anxiety depression quiz tonight and it said i can be very overwelmed which is true then i started reading through everyone's (idk what to call them) posts or discussions and i felt like i should write one myself. i wish to see if anyone else feels like i do and am eager for some advice. many thanks, idk.

I'm so lost

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Hi to whoever reads this, im in highschool and have been for a bit now and I feel so lifeless. I have many friends but I feel like I can't trust anyone and im falling back into my old habits, I dont know what to do anymore, I dont feel like myself an... View more

Hi to whoever reads this, im in highschool and have been for a bit now and I feel so lifeless. I have many friends but I feel like I can't trust anyone and im falling back into my old habits, I dont know what to do anymore, I dont feel like myself and I really don't want to go back to my old self. I can't talk to my family because it involves them but I dont feel like myself anymore, I dont feel at home in my own house, its like im a stranger even when im looking in the mirror.

High school drop out - Options?

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Hi all,I'm a 16 year old turning 17 and need advice on what the next steps I should take. For context I dropped out of school half way through year 11 (2025) and wanted to pursue a trade like my older brother who is successful. I had no real plan and... View more

Hi all,I'm a 16 year old turning 17 and need advice on what the next steps I should take. For context I dropped out of school half way through year 11 (2025) and wanted to pursue a trade like my older brother who is successful. I had no real plan and just kind of winged it hoping that id get an apprenticeship reasonably easy but I had no luck for about a couple months and just worked retail with a good company, but my family had warned me to not get comfortable with them or else it wont go anywhere. So with that in mind I kept looking for a apprenticeship and was able to get a plumbing one and started doing that for a couple months, however it just wasn't what I wanted to do long term the guys on site were condescending and all around ignorant (typical tradie things). The guys that weren't rude and actually nice to me were telling me that you shouldn't do the trade, they explained that it was mentally and physically demanding and that a young kid like you shouldn't be here especially when there's a lot more opportunities out there. It also didn't help that the hours were long and rough by the time id get home just to fall asleep and wake up the next morning and head off to work, there wasn't a lot of time for me to have my own personal time and it just started to stress me out and felt like shit had no social life and was just working with these guys that hate everything. I didn't want to live the life that they were living. So after a couple months at it i just couldn't handle it and quit just to head back to retail working and I've been given a few choices on what i should do. One was to go back to school and finish off y12 however since i didn't complete y11 i would have to restart it essentially making me a year behind all my mates or I could continue looking of an apprenticeship with a a bigger company hoping that they'd treat me a little better. My parents have encouraged to make a choice and stick with it and Im just not sure what i want to do as a career although i would love to be a content creator though its quite not in the cards for me. I have been stressing and having major anxiety over this. I know that my life just starting but i already feel like I'm being thrown into the deep end not really knowing what to do and it sucks because my parents have always been supportive of me and i just feel like Im wasting there time and that they should've had a better since I don't deserve itIf anyone has advice id really appreciate it(apologies for bad e

I wasn't me! | Struggling with my identity

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Sorry if this post is late at midnight but I just felt to need to write this thing that i've been feeling but It just ended up being a short story vent.So here it is! I Wasn't Meby Asterix(This is a true story)(also there might be spelling and gramme... View more

Sorry if this post is late at midnight but I just felt to need to write this thing that i've been feeling but It just ended up being a short story vent.So here it is! I Wasn't Meby Asterix(This is a true story)(also there might be spelling and grammer mistakes) _________________________________________________________________________________my name is Asterix.I'm a Guy, 22 and Sometimes I don't recognize myself in the mirrorI've been having this issue were if I look at my reflection I have this feeling that what I'm looking at isn't me, don't get me wrong I know that it's my reflection but just doesn't feel right, I'm not saying I don't like what I see or that it makes me sad, I literally feel like it not me, there's someone else there! as if theirs a stranger looking back at me and when I turn my head, no matter what angle I put it I still don't recognize myself.I used to think this is just something that all men experience but that they just don't talk about it, so I just brush it aside mentally. I remember I tried to make myself look stereotypically "Masculine" by growing out a goatee beard and wearing an undone button up shirt with a t-shirt underneath.I hated it. It made me feel so miserable looking at my self, it made me want to scratch my facial hair off so I shaved it off and went back to wearing hoodies.This changed when I shaved head bald and I felt a spark, because I looked how I wanted to I felt as If was looking at me and I didn't hate it, I liked what I saw.Being bald and looking at myself at that state made me learn that I have different mental images of my self when I go day to day, sometimes I would imagine myself looking a certain way and other times I looking like something else but when I would look at my self in my reflection wither it be a shiny surface or the mirror I world feel surprised, like I forgot that I looked like that?Just the other day I was in the bathroom looking at the mirror, I look at my face, and I felt it againI stood stillI looked into the strangers eyesHe was standing and looking at me tooI felt as if the mirror was a window to someone else's houseI felt a bit vertigoI asked him "is that you Asterix?"And the stranger asked me the same question and I felt as if he was speaking to me directlyI wasn't me!I started to panic!I asked him with my other names"Is that you Alex!""Is that you Jaime!"I wasn't me!I went to my room and looked into the cupboard mirror and looked at my self. I took my hand and put it front my head so that i wouldn't see my face. I didn't hate my body but when I slowly put my hand away to see the strangers face, I was frightened!I put my hand back were it was, I opened my fingers and I saw the strangers eyes, I was scared!I jump away from my reflection and held onto the cupboard door, breathing heavily with fear!____________________________________________________________________________________I think I realized that this isn't something a can just brush aside anymore, this is a problem. I don't think it's normal to think this way. I don't know why I feel this way but I do and I don't want too. I'm not looking for attention, I'm not writing a Steven king horror! This happened to me! So yeah I don't recognize myself in the mirror. Let me know if you have a similar problem of if you have eny advise on what I should do to deal with this? Thank you,~ TheBlackRabbit

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