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Apathy

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I just can't bring myself to study anymore. I've skipped classes for the last month or more and am risking failure from attendance hurdles. I've neglected assignments and chosen to play video games instead. I was on track for graduating this semester... View more

I just can't bring myself to study anymore. I've skipped classes for the last month or more and am risking failure from attendance hurdles. I've neglected assignments and chosen to play video games instead. I was on track for graduating this semester, but with how things are I will definitely fail a few subjects. I don't know what to do anymore. My peers all seem to be motivated in their endeavors, whilst I am struggling with apathy and a lack of motivation. I have no future plans to study post-graduation, and no career ambitions. It is unlikely that I'll be able to hold a full-time job, given how much I struggle with my current part-time work. I just wish I had the drive to do things like normal people seem to do. Instead, I end up oversleeping and staying in bed, neglecting my responsibilities. Life just isn't for me. - end vent -

Best friend of 11 years consumed by depression and anxiety

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Hi there... I have been best friends with this girl since year 1 and we're both in year 10 now. We are basically sisters. I would do anything for her and could never imagine my life without her. I've been gradually watching her, years after year, be ... View more

Hi there... I have been best friends with this girl since year 1 and we're both in year 10 now. We are basically sisters. I would do anything for her and could never imagine my life without her. I've been gradually watching her, years after year, be slowly overtaken by her anxiety which was then followed by depression. She eats sporadically, some days will eat almost nothing, others she will eat a little closer to normal, gets in moods where she won't talk to anyone for the entire day, and more recently has skipped almost a week of school because of how depressed she was. I feel so helpless. I feel like all I can do is watch as she slowly loses herself. I've tried so many times to help. I try so hard to be there for her, but often I'm sobbing while texting her because we've gotten into an argument or she's lashing out (it's never really aimed at me personally and we always fix things, but when she gets into moods it's horrible) I've suggested she go to her old counsellor ("No, I hate her"), that she see the college counsellors ("I don't even know them!), tried to suggest just regular teachers, go on this website or the forums ("They don't work") my parents and her own. She won't talk to her own because her mum is currently very depressed (it's genetic. All women on both sides of the family have suffered) and so she doesn't want to worry her or give her dad any more to worry about. Her boyfriend and I often talk and we're both so worried. We were just talking about possibly going to the school counselors together for advice. I'm just so worried. I have anxiety myself (nowhere near the level she has, luckily) and so I worry about literally everything. This is literally haunting my every waking moment. Please help me to help her!! I don't want to lose her!

Holding down a job with Depression

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Hey everyone, this is my first post with Beyond Blue and I'm a bit nervous! I wanted to seek out some support for an issue I've been facing for quite a while now. I got my first job at the beginning of 2016, in a cafe. The job was fine, but eventuall... View more

Hey everyone, this is my first post with Beyond Blue and I'm a bit nervous! I wanted to seek out some support for an issue I've been facing for quite a while now. I got my first job at the beginning of 2016, in a cafe. The job was fine, but eventually I became so depressed, anxious and stressed that I would call in sick regularly, lie about why I couldn't come to work, and even get to the point where I would pretend I was going to work, to fool my family. I ended up quitting via email one Saturday morning when I had a panic attack and didn't want to ever go back. NOTHING to do with the workplace - everything to do with me, and not being able to cope. Fast forward to now, September 2017. I've been at my current retail job for 11 months, and the same thing is happening. Today I called in sick with "gastro" but really I just could not pass the mental barrier to get to work. All I think about is quitting, and I know I'm frustrating my employers. But I really need to money to pay my rent and petrol. I'm beginning to worry that I will be fired. I honestly just don't think I can handle working at the moment. Has anyone else experienced this? What do I do? I care about my company and I'm not a lazy person, I'm just genuinely so broken in my head that I'm finding it virtually impossible to pull myself together and be "normal". Will this ever get better? Should I quit before I'm fired? for reference, I'm a 19 year old female living out of home. Thank you

Feeling stuck and incomplete for the past 6 years.

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Ever since starting high school I've felt horrible. I was bullied, I never truly found great friends, I struggled with my work and I didn't feel I accomplished a whole lot. After graduating I was excited to finally get on my feet and start uni and cr... View more

Ever since starting high school I've felt horrible. I was bullied, I never truly found great friends, I struggled with my work and I didn't feel I accomplished a whole lot. After graduating I was excited to finally get on my feet and start uni and create great friends... It never happened. I didn't like what I was studying and once again, I felt lonely. So I dropped out and was alone for 6 months. I ended up quitting my job for the last 3 because it was making me more upset. I then decided to join an acting school which has been a great decision. I was doing well and I've found what I want to do. By the end of it though they ended up cutting the course early and I'm sitting here again, alone. No job and was just messed around with a guy that had made me the happiest I'd been in a while. He dropped me so suddenly and It took me a little while to get a hold of things again but it's hard when you don't have a job to distract you or great friends to help you through it. I suppose what I'm trying to say is that I don't know why I can't get past that wall, I've always had these great idea's and excitement about life and it always ends up going back to what it was. I have a lot of potential in so many areas, I know that, and many people have told me that. I've also been told that I'm great to be round. So that's why I'm so confused as to why I can't get anywhere! I hate it so much, it's eventually going to wreck me if I can't find what's getting in the way. Could it be depression? If so, will medication magically make this all happen for me? What can I do?

Having a hard time with my entire life. Too tired to do anything about it.

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I feel stuck in a job I hate, lost my grandma and my girlfriend left me within the last 3 months. I have absolutely no energy, i got to work, i come home and i basically sleep until the next day. I have no motivation/ willpower nor energy to eat righ... View more

I feel stuck in a job I hate, lost my grandma and my girlfriend left me within the last 3 months. I have absolutely no energy, i got to work, i come home and i basically sleep until the next day. I have no motivation/ willpower nor energy to eat right or exercise. I recently went to my GP and he diagnosed me with severe depression, gave me a recommendation to see a psychiatrist and put me on some medication to raise my mood. Blood tests results were normal.I can’t stick to hobbies; I get bored of them after a few weeks. I avoid going out with friends because I feel constantly tired and just want to go home. I don’t exercise because my job works weird hours and when I am not there I am sleeping. I haven’t gone to the psychiatrist despite being recommended 2 months ago due to just being lazy and not finding the time. My Job in my GP’s opinion is my biggest problem. I work in retail full time and am basically carrying my team despite it not being my job. I have recently caught the eye of a lot of people higher in the company but I just am so put off by moving higher in retail. I have no idea what I want to do for a career and I feel like my list of options are getting shorter due to apprenticeships being rare to obtain once over the age of 21. My family is distant, I can’t really talk to them in a way I feel comfortable, (just tell me I’m not trying hard enough). My friends however are my real support, its the only aspect of my life I am happy with. They are always there to help me get out of the slumps I go through, but I feel like this one is different. The girlfriend situation was really tough, she was my best friend through highschool and we dated for the last 15 months. felt like I was putting in all the effort to see her and it made it really difficult, to the point where she would refuse to see me due to being too busy with going out with family despite me going through the death from my Grandma. Now I feel like I have made a mistake but she wants nothing to do with me, we went from talking everyday to just not knowing each other. Which I understand may be just her way of dealing. I think it was for the best; however it doesn’t soften the blow. thinking about moving out of home, however I don’t think It would be a smart move financially due to being on a low wage and looking for an apprenticeship (if that is what I decide). I'm just so lost in life, I don’t want to do anything anymore. I’m so tired all the time and I just don’t know where to start.

Moving schools- anxiety and bullying

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Hi, I am a 14 year old girl in year 8 and lately i've been experiencing quite a bit of stress and anxiety at school. This first started about 6 months ago when my close friends mum screamed and shouted at my mum and I, telling us that I was a horribl... View more

Hi, I am a 14 year old girl in year 8 and lately i've been experiencing quite a bit of stress and anxiety at school. This first started about 6 months ago when my close friends mum screamed and shouted at my mum and I, telling us that I was a horrible person and other cruel things. This girl and I aren't friends any more but we are in the same home room at school, and her mum works as an ea too. Every time I see one of them at school, I tense up and start worrying and sweating. I don't really have any other friends that respect me or treat me how i'd like. I've tried talking to my mum about it, and she suggests that I am not trying hard enough to make an effort with other people. I am a competitive horse rider and I ride and train every day of the week, so I find it hard to find time to socialise on weekends. Lately I've been looking at other school options so I can have a fresh start and kind of get on with it a bit, but the next nearest high school is a 50 minute bus ride away. There is one public school which would be preferable to my family in terms of financials, but no busses go from my town directly to the school. The two other private schools would cost thousands of dollars, but i know a few people who go there. I have tried bringing up the subject with my parents but they say that it wouldn't be possible for me to move due to my training commitments. One of my friends who goes to one of the private schools still manages to catch the bus home and then still train, and I feel like I could do that too, but my parents aren't keen on the idea Hope someone could give me some advice, thanks (:

Need advice on how to find out if I'm depressed

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Hi I'm just looking for a little advice as I don't really have anyone in my real life I can talk to about this. I think I may be depressed but I'm not really sure I think I should see a doctor before I tell my parents but I don't want to go alone and... View more

Hi I'm just looking for a little advice as I don't really have anyone in my real life I can talk to about this. I think I may be depressed but I'm not really sure I think I should see a doctor before I tell my parents but I don't want to go alone and have no way of getting there and no one to go with but I just don't want to say to someone I think I'm depressed or I am depressed when I honestly don't know, send help

Done with University

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Hi all, So I'm in my first year of University and I am passing all my subjects but only just. I generally don't ask for help because I think I'm doing it right and then I get my marks back and I've only just scraped through. I tend to be really hard ... View more

Hi all, So I'm in my first year of University and I am passing all my subjects but only just. I generally don't ask for help because I think I'm doing it right and then I get my marks back and I've only just scraped through. I tend to be really hard on myself so nearly failing sits pretty heavily with me and bothers me for days if not weeks. All my friends seem to be doing really well- GPA's of 6+ whereas I'm sitting on a 4.5 (just passing). I just don't know where I'm going wrong and I can't really ask anyone about it because when I talk to my friends about assessment we seem to be on the same page about things. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others and all that but I'm having a really hard time because I think I'm doing everything right but I keep getting it all so wrong. Part of me wants to give up and drop out but I know my family would be so disappointed in me which makes it all worse because disappointing them is the last thing I want to do. Not sure what I'm looking for in posting this, I think I just wanted to get it off my chest, either way thanks for listening.

I need to know what it is I'm feeling or what's wrong.

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Hi. I wanted to write here again because it had a positive impact in my life, but this time I wanted to address a range of things that go on in my life, hoping for the support of the lovely people on here. I'm not good at explaining everything but he... View more

Hi. I wanted to write here again because it had a positive impact in my life, but this time I wanted to address a range of things that go on in my life, hoping for the support of the lovely people on here. I'm not good at explaining everything but here's a quick summary and I really hope for some help. Ill start off with the fact I've been diagnosed with ADD and OCD and am currently seeing people to help with those conditions. I also wanted to address some pretty deep stuff about my mental state that is appropriate. For years now, I've been suffering through a time of me disliking many people and pushing them away aggressively to the point of hostility. This ends up resulting in really bad depression that I must endure which I struggle some days not to just drop onto the floor and cry. It usually comes in sudden outbursts of depression however the causes can be unknown or be triggered. My family life is pretty good, except my hatred for my father who neglected me through most of my childhood and current state. I begin to become more hostile to him as the time passes and I really don't think I should be doing so. My friendships are good however I have little amounts of them due to the reasons of my hostility and severe disliking of the people at my school. I also have a concern for my issues such as the having little to no empathy and sympathy. I just struggle to really care even if I try sometimes. Some say it's weird, but I want to care for people but I can't if I don't know how or can't feel it whatsoever. I can read emotions but I just don't care that much which saddens me Id also like to address some previous childhood bullying where my previous best friend had bullied me and she and her friends would bully and harass me, and they have no idea. I sometimes fantasise about telling them about what they did and just seeing their reactions which is really cruel. thats not all but it's as much as I can do with 500 words left. I do see a psychiatrist and psychologist but I struggle to get information out. If you managed to read through this, thanks for your time you wonderful human. Have a good day/night

Struggling with uni/personal life

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Hi all, I am a second year law student, well actually i'm in my third year at uni, but i failed a couple of units last semester, so decided to take a mental and physical health break for the first semester, and am back at uni re-doing the units i fai... View more

Hi all, I am a second year law student, well actually i'm in my third year at uni, but i failed a couple of units last semester, so decided to take a mental and physical health break for the first semester, and am back at uni re-doing the units i failed this semester. The health break started well, but was overall a complete failure. I'm incredibly introverted, slightly overweight (to the point of being an unhealthy annoyance more than a serious urgent health issue), and am struggling and have struggled adapting to university life and maintaining a good personal life. At the end of last year, I had been skipping classes due to being too anxious and worried about having to speak in front of class, and more so scared of not knowing the answer to something and looking stupid. This got to the point were I would have to fake sickness to get out of class to avoid being unenrolled due to bad attendance. For the most part, my assignments are fine, getting at least a pass in most instances, but my attendance in actual tutorial classes and lectures is bad. By the end of last year it had gotten to the point where i didn't care anymore and didn't bother watching lectures online or anything, and failed my exams. I enjoy learning about law (and politics which i do through Arts, I'm doing a combined degree), but get too anxious and legitimately scared to go to class. Some background on my personal life, and possible contributors to my current situation: Im slightly overweight and unhealthy, part of my planned break from uni was to be spent going to the gym and eating well, and losing weight. It started off well, but after a month or two i regressed and haven't gotten back to the level of commitment i once had, although i do still work out a couple of times a week or so, when i can be bothered getting up and going. I can tell my health is making me feel bad about myself and generally unwell most of the time. I want to fix this, but find it hard to be out in public situations where people might talk to me. My father passed away in 2011 when i was about 15, this has obviously been a massive burden, I live in a single mother household with 3 younger siblings and have become somewhat of a role model for my youngest sibling, who finds it hard to remember his dad at times. This also lead to broken relationships due to depressive and suicidal thoughts during college.

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Best friend of 11 years consumed by depression and anxiety

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Holding down a job with Depression

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Feeling stuck and incomplete for the past 6 years.

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Having a hard time with my entire life. Too tired to do anything about it.

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Moving schools- anxiety and bullying

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Need advice on how to find out if I'm depressed

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Done with University

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I need to know what it is I'm feeling or what's wrong.

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Apathy

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Best friend of 11 years consumed by depression and anxiety

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Holding down a job with Depression

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Feeling stuck and incomplete for the past 6 years.

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Having a hard time with my entire life. Too tired to do anything about it.

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Moving schools- anxiety and bullying

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Need advice on how to find out if I'm depressed

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Done with University

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I need to know what it is I'm feeling or what's wrong.

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