Hi all, I really don't feel comfortable with my psychiatrist. I have
been seeing her since earlier this year for acute depression with
suicidal ideation/attempt. I have been on multiple medications but none
have helped. I feel that my psychiatrist ha...
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Hi all, I really don't feel comfortable with my psychiatrist. I have
been seeing her since earlier this year for acute depression with
suicidal ideation/attempt. I have been on multiple medications but none
have helped. I feel that my psychiatrist has made very poor assumptions
about me - based on the roughly 5 hours total I have seen her for. When
I talk to her, I feel she does not listen to what I have to say, only
what she wants to hear, e.g. saying things like "but you're leaving the
house, so you can't be feeling that bad", despite me telling her that I
am still really struggling with simple effort tasks like showering,
eating properly etc. My psychiatrist wants me to move out of home, even
though I can't trust myself to be alone right now and home is where my
support is. When I told her this, she inferred I was incompetent and
needed to "do things on my own". I have tried to defend myself so many
times but it's like talking to a brick wall, or a bully. I am scared to
see her again. I leave her office feeling so small. As I'm not on the
right medication it feels like I'm stuck with her. I worry that if I try
and find another psychiatrist I'll be waiting for so long that I'll get
worse. But I also worry that she is right, and I'm too depressed to hear
it. I guess my question is, what if she is telling me what I need to
hear but I can't hear it because I am depressed? Do I trust myself and
stop seeing her, or should I trust her more as the professional?Thanks.