Tired of fighting this battle.

[Beaser]

I hope im ok to post as ive posted so often on other  forums  but im feeling very desperate lately. 

Im just so tired of fighting. I left a job i was in for many years last year. I have since had some part time work that didnt work out.  Im lonely and going broke.  I was desperate and called triple o last week only to be left to my own devices again. I may be going into a facility called parc a non acute inpatient service but that thought scares me. I dont know how much more i can endure. I hope every one is well and thank you for reading      Brett

[Beaser]

Hi and best wishes to everyone.

I hope im not overdoing the posts but sometimes i just need to let it out a bit.

Its hard at times to battle alone and at times i question my feelings sort of like is it real what im going through if that makes any sense. 

I think the Christmas , New year period really unsettled me..     Im hoping that when i get back to my volunteer role it will help steady things  again.  

I  hope everyone has the best day possible.

Beaser

[Eagle Ray]

Dear Beaser,

It’s totally ok to post whenever you feel the need to. I think especially when living alone it’s really important to reach out. I think if you are having certain feelings they are real. It’s just that when we are on our own we don’t have the usual soundboard that we have when we live with others, where we can share our feelings and someone asks how our day is and we ask them how their day is. It does make it harder without that relational dynamic.

Are you able to sense into what was most unsettling over Christmas and New Year? For me I think feelings of loneliness and isolation came up to a degree and as I’m hitting a milestone birthday I’m experiencing that too. But in relation to the birthday I’m using it as an opportunity to review my life and how to go forward in healing ways. I think if you can understand what your feelings are about, it can often help to spark ideas for proactive ways to feel better, find connection with others and nurture yourself.

You might find you do feel better back in your volunteer role as I think those interactions with others are so helpful. They take us out of ourselves and into a relational context, and that is so good for us. I can sense you are such a kind person Beaser and someone who benefits from human contact. Your kindness is an asset to the world so know that you are of value.

Wishing you the best day possible too 🤗