Tired of fighting this battle.

[Beaser]

I hope im ok to post as ive posted so often on other  forums  but im feeling very desperate lately. 

Im just so tired of fighting. I left a job i was in for many years last year. I have since had some part time work that didnt work out.  Im lonely and going broke.  I was desperate and called triple o last week only to be left to my own devices again. I may be going into a facility called parc a non acute inpatient service but that thought scares me. I dont know how much more i can endure. I hope every one is well and thank you for reading      Brett

[Beaser]

Thanks ER.

Its been a tough few days and im feeling it to be honest. 

The elderly man falling has really upset me.  I know its not my fault and he wasnt  supposed to do what he did after being told by  his family. Its still upsetting.   

I had to get some help yesterday as things got too much .

Thanks for getting back to me its good to be able to put things down in writing here.  

I hope my  struggles are not in any way triggering for you or others,

I dont know where else to turn to at times like this.

Wishing you Happy Day.   

Beaser

[Eagle Ray]

Hello dear Beaser,

When you are a caring person it’s hard not to be really affected by these things. It’s good you reached out for help.

See if you can feel kindness towards yourself at this time. I’m gradually learning to do it myself and one thing I do is try to think how I’d comfort and support someone else in a similar situation and then try to do that for myself. I never used to be able to consider myself, but now I try to remember to be gentle, kind and nurturing towards myself in upsetting situations. It’s really good to have interactions with kind others too as that helps us feel more grounded and supported in our emotions.

It’s fine to write how you feel here. It will all settle in time. I hope you can feel a bit better today and do something kind for yourself. We are here for you.

Best wishes,

ER

[Beaser]

Hi ER and thank you. 

You right sometimes its important to remember to be a bit kinder to ourselves, even give ourselves a pat on the back. 

I took the mans wife to a DR appointment this morning and went to the supermarket for her, ive always tried to help when i can but i need take care of myself too. 

I  rang my sister for a chat earlier so that was a good friendly chat she has tried to help me where she can .

Im hoping things do begin to settle. I have my volunteer role tommorow then a meeting in the arvo so its a bit of structure for the day.

Its pretty hot here again today and i must admit im not a big fan of the heat nowadays. Its a bit cooler in the coming days.  

Hoping your day is going well and not to hot.   Always good to chat.

Beaser

[Eagle Ray]

Hi Beaser,

Good on you for helping out the man’s wife but, yes, remember to take care of yourself too.

Having the structure of your volunteer work and the meeting tomorrow should be helpful. I find I do better on days with some structure. It’s great you chatted with your sister too.

Perhaps there’s a way to build some structure into more days? That’s something I’m looking at for myself as I can drift a bit otherwise. Like today I set some tasks to do in another town, including getting items I needed from several stores for house maintenance plus grocery shopping. I find just having an outing like that can make a difference.

Take it easy and I’m sure things will settle. You are a very kind and caring person Beaser, so know the world is lucky to have you.

Take care,

ER